Japan Bound? - Oh NO
So most of the people I speak to know that I had planned to go to Japan this October for a year-long exchange. Well, after getting turned down for one scholarship and instead getting what pretty much equates to plane fare - I wasn't mad - no. I still had a chance at the grandaddy of scholarships - the Japanese government's MEXT scholarship.
Unfortunatly, as of yesterday afternoon - all hope is dead. No scholarship for me. Out of 10 applicants they picked two - and oh shocker - I was not one of them. I know I sound catty, but I was really led to believe that I would at least be fairly considered. I don't think I was.
Aside from the money situation (there is NO way I can save $10-12,000 over the summer)apparently I'm being told that the program I was to have taken wouldn't be available to me anyway. I would have to take "regular academic classes" - not what I signed up for, for sure.
So - I'm just so disappointed, I don't quite know how else to express it. I rearranged my whole life around this. I planned to go, switched jobs! I kinda can't unswitch jobs. I had my heart set on going for so long, that it's hard to believe that I can't. It is really hard for me to accept.
Well - for some reason I don't think it's over quite yet, but I am depressed as hell. It's also the last weekend for some of my Japanese friends to be in Halifax - so woopie double depressed. C'est la vie.
Unfortunatly, as of yesterday afternoon - all hope is dead. No scholarship for me. Out of 10 applicants they picked two - and oh shocker - I was not one of them. I know I sound catty, but I was really led to believe that I would at least be fairly considered. I don't think I was.
Aside from the money situation (there is NO way I can save $10-12,000 over the summer)apparently I'm being told that the program I was to have taken wouldn't be available to me anyway. I would have to take "regular academic classes" - not what I signed up for, for sure.
So - I'm just so disappointed, I don't quite know how else to express it. I rearranged my whole life around this. I planned to go, switched jobs! I kinda can't unswitch jobs. I had my heart set on going for so long, that it's hard to believe that I can't. It is really hard for me to accept.
Well - for some reason I don't think it's over quite yet, but I am depressed as hell. It's also the last weekend for some of my Japanese friends to be in Halifax - so woopie double depressed. C'est la vie.