wings
i just came back yesterday and i'm ready to go home again. i feel obligated to be at my house during the christmas season. so my mom can force me to listen to christmas music 24 hours a day, and i can watch my dad during his annual routine of putting together his train set. 10 days between now and then. i'm just so over this semester. like really. i've had enough school, i need a break. a real break. where i don't have a bio test 2 days after i come back. brainless activites. i can do this.
other than that, i'm swell. i feel very confident in my life today. lately i've been really honest with myself. over the last couple of months i've slowly been giving away all my secrets, my fears, and the key to my vulnerability to my other. because i don't want them anymore. yesterday i let go of my last and final burden that was somewhat detrimental to my life at one point. and i've never felt more free. i'm not even ashamed or embarassed anymore of these things. and it's nice to know i have someone who i can tell anything to, anything, and they will still love me. i can't even believe the amount of things that i just push down for years and years and just go on with my everyday's. or how many times i settled for less than what i deserved. it's hard to explain i guess. find somebody you can trust. it's the best thing you can do for yourself.
other than that, i'm swell. i feel very confident in my life today. lately i've been really honest with myself. over the last couple of months i've slowly been giving away all my secrets, my fears, and the key to my vulnerability to my other. because i don't want them anymore. yesterday i let go of my last and final burden that was somewhat detrimental to my life at one point. and i've never felt more free. i'm not even ashamed or embarassed anymore of these things. and it's nice to know i have someone who i can tell anything to, anything, and they will still love me. i can't even believe the amount of things that i just push down for years and years and just go on with my everyday's. or how many times i settled for less than what i deserved. it's hard to explain i guess. find somebody you can trust. it's the best thing you can do for yourself.