Supress.

[rooster05]

It was Autumn, and I was lying on a park bench in the morning. I'm pretty sure it was morning, anyway. I could see my breath so it felt like morningtime. It's hard to tell. What time was it? I looked down to my watch, but it wasn't in my pocket like I had thought it was. I patted my front pockets, my rear pockets, coat pockets. Nothing. A sudden wave of uncertainty began to creep all over me. What if night was only an hour away? Was it too late to dine? Where was I supposed to be? I had to find out the time. Panic, panic setting in, panic! A leaf fell on top of my head, and I yanked it off. 'Fuck!' I cried. I had never felt so lost! Then suddenly, I started searching my whole area for this watch. I wasn't sitting on it or standing on it, that was for sure, and I didn't remember throwing it away. I didn't see it in the pile of newspapers. I retraced my steps around the park and found my other shoe, finally, but still no watch. It wasn't in the tree, either! 'Do you think a dog ate it,' I said, but I didn't see any dogs around. Getting desperate I thought about asking someone for help. There were some guys playing hackeysack in the basketball court. Maybe they knew where my time went. I went over to them to ask. Before I knew it, though, I got caught up in their game because watching them play calmed me down some. It's a tough sport, hackeysack, tougher than most people will ever know. I was hypnotized. One of the guys playing came over and asked me if I wanted to join them. I didn't say no. I didn't say anything. I knew that I wanted to tell him, all of them, that I couldn't find my father's old watch. Broken watch, and old. I had taken the watch the last time I saw him, when he told me he didn't want me in his life. He said that I was only standing just to fall down again, and then I stopped being his son finally because that was what he wanted the whole time, a son who wouldn't disappoint him. And then he got this look like I was destroying him and his life he'd worked so hard for. I didn't want to be his failure anymore. 'I never knew him,' I tried to say. 'He never knew me.'
The guy turned around and said, "Go find him."