building up courage.
There are those moments when the greatest thing you have ever encounter will come to an end. There are also those moments in which you need to turn to good ole livejournal to just let it all out for a test run.
Distance has become second nature to you and I in the past month. I am pushing and running away from you. You are everything I have known for years and somehow you are the strangest person to me. I am at the threshold of completely hating you yet it breaks my heart to think that I may break your heart, your soul, your life; I want out. I don't know how to tell you. I am tip-toeing around stupid excuses and sugar-coating the terribleness I need to say. If only you'd knew you would be tossing and turning for weeks.
Tomorrow is the day. Tomorrow is when it all ends. Everything that ever mattered between us will be talked about in past tense of how it was and how it felt. The laughs, the fights, the love...the everything...will just be done.
I promise you, I swear...I loved you more than I have ever loved another person. You were it... the one...the one I thought I was going to be old and gross with. You were the one..that loved me like no one HAS EVER loved me but you were also the one that hurt me like no other has ever hurt me before. You were the one that could not control the demon inside of you. You were the one that made it like this. My love for you would have gone on forever as long as it was cherished and cared for and cradled and cushioned. We failed at being together...we failed at giving up our weaknesses. We failed at the late night "I love you's" and the early morning dreams.
My heart crumbles for you and it will for so long. I will call out for you in the middle of the night and cry and cry and cry but I'd rather cry for you no being there than cry while you are sitting next to me.
I will always love you and I will miss you so much.
Distance has become second nature to you and I in the past month. I am pushing and running away from you. You are everything I have known for years and somehow you are the strangest person to me. I am at the threshold of completely hating you yet it breaks my heart to think that I may break your heart, your soul, your life; I want out. I don't know how to tell you. I am tip-toeing around stupid excuses and sugar-coating the terribleness I need to say. If only you'd knew you would be tossing and turning for weeks.
Tomorrow is the day. Tomorrow is when it all ends. Everything that ever mattered between us will be talked about in past tense of how it was and how it felt. The laughs, the fights, the love...the everything...will just be done.
I promise you, I swear...I loved you more than I have ever loved another person. You were it... the one...the one I thought I was going to be old and gross with. You were the one..that loved me like no one HAS EVER loved me but you were also the one that hurt me like no other has ever hurt me before. You were the one that could not control the demon inside of you. You were the one that made it like this. My love for you would have gone on forever as long as it was cherished and cared for and cradled and cushioned. We failed at being together...we failed at giving up our weaknesses. We failed at the late night "I love you's" and the early morning dreams.
My heart crumbles for you and it will for so long. I will call out for you in the middle of the night and cry and cry and cry but I'd rather cry for you no being there than cry while you are sitting next to me.
I will always love you and I will miss you so much.