(oneshot) hyuna/junhyung | don't let me fall
don't let me fall
hyuna/junhyung
~1300 words, drama/angst
R
- thanks to caramel_chai who betaed this ^__^
just a crap i was craving to write
don't let me fall
When hyuna first arrived from JYP, she looked like a little puppy deserted in the pouring rain. Actually it was raining that day, it was a rainy summer morning and in her clumsiness she forgot to take the umbrella with her. She had sad eyes and her hair was all wet and stuck to her forehead and cheeks, as well as her shirt stuck at her body just like a second skin, revealing her thinness because of her illness. But she decided to not give up, not yet at least. She was too young and too healthy despite her illness to give up now.
But she was scared. She was a little child and couldn’t handle all the pressure over her. Hyuna decided to not give up, but she wasn’t sure at all whether if she will be able to make or not. And there were times in which she cried alone in the dressing rooms during hours by her own.
When junhyung met hyuna he convinced himself that he will not get involved in such a trouble now, but he lent her his handkerchief at the end because one of the things junhyung hates the most, besides waking up early, is to see a woman crying pretending that she’s not.
On another day, hyuna gave him back his handkerchief. She washed it. It smelled like woman. It smelled like her.
“thank you so much, junhyung oppa” she said with the hands together and a bow. Junhyung stretched his nape.
“it’s okay” he said, hyuna smiled “are you okay now?”
“yes”
“can I know… why you were crying yesterday?”
Junhyung tried to convince himself he wouldn’t get into a trouble like that, but he forgot that he sucked at persuading people, at persuading himself.
They became friends faster than they thought. they both were helping lee gikwang with his solo debut after all so they bumped into each other in the studio, in the filming spot, in cube’s hallways late at nights (and there were times where junhyung found hyuna asleep curled up outside the practice room just because she wanted to walk home with him)
It was a trouble bigger than junhyung expected.
He pretended to not notice how hyuna’s lips widen into a smile at the instant her eyes were put on him. He pretended to not notice her cheeks blushing when he patted her shoulder just to say “good work”. He pretended to not notice her disappointment when junhyung said that it was too late and that she should go home by herself and her excitement when junhyung was done before they expected so they could walk all the way together.
He tried to not think that hyuna dreamed about him last night.
That afternoon they sent the both of them to buy drinks since the recording was over (junhyung said that playing rocks, papers and scissors, he and hyuna against gikwang and doojoon was unfair, but all was useless at the end).
It started to rain and neither of them had an umbrella, so they ran to take shelter from the rain under a roof.
With both hair and shirt stuck to her face and body hyuna told junhyung that she liked him.
Junhyung stared at the floor. The plastic bag with the drinks was dripping and hyuna’s hands were trembling not of cold, precisely.
He bit his lower lip.
“I’m sorry, hyuna, but I don’t like girls”
They waited until the sky cleared. When it stopped raining they walked to the studio in silence. As soon as they arrived hyuna took all her things and left saying something like she didn’t feel good at all. Both gikwang and doojoon looked at junhyung as if it was all his fault.
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Hyuna would have gone crazy because of junhyung, and she was this close to reaching insanity, ‘cause he had chased away all the sanity in her. Being rejected like that, it’s not something any woman would admit.
She flung him against the wall and kissed his lips, biting them insanely soft. Her tongue made her way to meet his as well as her knee at the bottom found its way between his legs to press his southern region. His pants were too tight for him now, and junhyung have found himself with the hands under both hyuna’s shirt and skirt when he shoved her away.
“hyuna, I can’t” he said, both were breathing out of control and junhyung knew that if it weren’t him this would have go on who knows how far. Hyuna’s shirt was unbuttoned, revealing her red brassiere. “I can’t” he said “I’m dating someone else…”
Then why did you let me fall…
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They didn’t talk again unless it was necessary. Hyuna didn’t feel strong enough to look him into his eyes nor to call him oppa, ‘cause it was the worst humiliation she could ever feel. months went on and time killed the pain and healed the wounds, but her heart didn’t change at all, no matter how hard she tried.
When they decided that junhyung was going to make a feature in her solo debut she swore inwardly, but then she smiled, pretending it was okay. After all, she couldn’t run away from him forever.
They recorded the song separately, but the shooting day hyuna was so nervous that her stomach hurt, as well as it hurt because of her illness. It weren’t butterflies exactly; it was more like an acid.
While they were shooting, hyuna couldn’t help but recall all the details of that afternoon in which she dragged junhyung to a dark room. His piercing eyes, his smooth milky skin, his wet tongue fiddled with her own, his rough hands rummaging through under her skirt, why do all these details come out as vivid as if they were printed in her mind when he stands so close that they can kiss again and repeat the story?
The next day junhyung visits hyuna at the hospital. They said she overworked but junhyung knows her nerves have something to do on all this.
“are you okay?” he asks, sitting next to her stretcher. Hyuna looks pretty well.
“yes” she mumbles. There’s an awkward silence then, she doesn’t know why he came. “junhyung… are you still dating the same person?” and junhyung doesn’t know why she asked.
“y-yes…” he said, still a little perplexed.
“hum… well, then, thanks for helping me with my solo debut” she says, ‘cause she will probably run out of words to talk and she hates those awkward silences.
“you’re welcome. I know you’ll do great”
“not too sure about it” she sighs “I’m an inexperienced child and I’m ill…
“Rubbish. You are great, you didn’t get up to here because of nothing and I’ll be right behind you in every performance to watch out for you” hyuna looked at him with widen open eyes because of his confession. Despite all these months without talking junhyung still thinks of her as his friend. He realized he talked more than he should and coughed. “Don’t get me wrong..” he added.
“No, no, I won’t… thank you…
“It’s okay” he said, smiling.
Hyuna cried bitter tears at the instant junhyung closed the doors behind him. She might have known her feelings haven’t changed, then, why did she ask? He might have assumed the same, then, why he still is so sweet towards her? She is so stubborn, but yet she can’t forget, yet she can’t get over him.
__
Junhyung stands right behind her in every single performance but all hyuna wants is for him to stand right beside her.
Junhyung helps her and writes her raps but all hyuna wants is him writing her songs of love.
Junhyung thinks of her as a little sister, but all hyuna wants is for him to think of her as a woman.
But she puts up with it all and smiles, ‘cause she doesn’t want to lose him again. She doesn’t think she can deal with it again.
During those cold nights I pretend that he’s beside
And when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me…
hyuna/junhyung
~1300 words, drama/angst
R
- thanks to caramel_chai who betaed this ^__^
just a crap i was craving to write
don't let me fall
When hyuna first arrived from JYP, she looked like a little puppy deserted in the pouring rain. Actually it was raining that day, it was a rainy summer morning and in her clumsiness she forgot to take the umbrella with her. She had sad eyes and her hair was all wet and stuck to her forehead and cheeks, as well as her shirt stuck at her body just like a second skin, revealing her thinness because of her illness. But she decided to not give up, not yet at least. She was too young and too healthy despite her illness to give up now.
But she was scared. She was a little child and couldn’t handle all the pressure over her. Hyuna decided to not give up, but she wasn’t sure at all whether if she will be able to make or not. And there were times in which she cried alone in the dressing rooms during hours by her own.
When junhyung met hyuna he convinced himself that he will not get involved in such a trouble now, but he lent her his handkerchief at the end because one of the things junhyung hates the most, besides waking up early, is to see a woman crying pretending that she’s not.
On another day, hyuna gave him back his handkerchief. She washed it. It smelled like woman. It smelled like her.
“thank you so much, junhyung oppa” she said with the hands together and a bow. Junhyung stretched his nape.
“it’s okay” he said, hyuna smiled “are you okay now?”
“yes”
“can I know… why you were crying yesterday?”
Junhyung tried to convince himself he wouldn’t get into a trouble like that, but he forgot that he sucked at persuading people, at persuading himself.
They became friends faster than they thought. they both were helping lee gikwang with his solo debut after all so they bumped into each other in the studio, in the filming spot, in cube’s hallways late at nights (and there were times where junhyung found hyuna asleep curled up outside the practice room just because she wanted to walk home with him)
It was a trouble bigger than junhyung expected.
He pretended to not notice how hyuna’s lips widen into a smile at the instant her eyes were put on him. He pretended to not notice her cheeks blushing when he patted her shoulder just to say “good work”. He pretended to not notice her disappointment when junhyung said that it was too late and that she should go home by herself and her excitement when junhyung was done before they expected so they could walk all the way together.
He tried to not think that hyuna dreamed about him last night.
That afternoon they sent the both of them to buy drinks since the recording was over (junhyung said that playing rocks, papers and scissors, he and hyuna against gikwang and doojoon was unfair, but all was useless at the end).
It started to rain and neither of them had an umbrella, so they ran to take shelter from the rain under a roof.
With both hair and shirt stuck to her face and body hyuna told junhyung that she liked him.
Junhyung stared at the floor. The plastic bag with the drinks was dripping and hyuna’s hands were trembling not of cold, precisely.
He bit his lower lip.
“I’m sorry, hyuna, but I don’t like girls”
They waited until the sky cleared. When it stopped raining they walked to the studio in silence. As soon as they arrived hyuna took all her things and left saying something like she didn’t feel good at all. Both gikwang and doojoon looked at junhyung as if it was all his fault.
__
Hyuna would have gone crazy because of junhyung, and she was this close to reaching insanity, ‘cause he had chased away all the sanity in her. Being rejected like that, it’s not something any woman would admit.
She flung him against the wall and kissed his lips, biting them insanely soft. Her tongue made her way to meet his as well as her knee at the bottom found its way between his legs to press his southern region. His pants were too tight for him now, and junhyung have found himself with the hands under both hyuna’s shirt and skirt when he shoved her away.
“hyuna, I can’t” he said, both were breathing out of control and junhyung knew that if it weren’t him this would have go on who knows how far. Hyuna’s shirt was unbuttoned, revealing her red brassiere. “I can’t” he said “I’m dating someone else…”
Then why did you let me fall…
__
They didn’t talk again unless it was necessary. Hyuna didn’t feel strong enough to look him into his eyes nor to call him oppa, ‘cause it was the worst humiliation she could ever feel. months went on and time killed the pain and healed the wounds, but her heart didn’t change at all, no matter how hard she tried.
When they decided that junhyung was going to make a feature in her solo debut she swore inwardly, but then she smiled, pretending it was okay. After all, she couldn’t run away from him forever.
They recorded the song separately, but the shooting day hyuna was so nervous that her stomach hurt, as well as it hurt because of her illness. It weren’t butterflies exactly; it was more like an acid.
While they were shooting, hyuna couldn’t help but recall all the details of that afternoon in which she dragged junhyung to a dark room. His piercing eyes, his smooth milky skin, his wet tongue fiddled with her own, his rough hands rummaging through under her skirt, why do all these details come out as vivid as if they were printed in her mind when he stands so close that they can kiss again and repeat the story?
The next day junhyung visits hyuna at the hospital. They said she overworked but junhyung knows her nerves have something to do on all this.
“are you okay?” he asks, sitting next to her stretcher. Hyuna looks pretty well.
“yes” she mumbles. There’s an awkward silence then, she doesn’t know why he came. “junhyung… are you still dating the same person?” and junhyung doesn’t know why she asked.
“y-yes…” he said, still a little perplexed.
“hum… well, then, thanks for helping me with my solo debut” she says, ‘cause she will probably run out of words to talk and she hates those awkward silences.
“you’re welcome. I know you’ll do great”
“not too sure about it” she sighs “I’m an inexperienced child and I’m ill…
“Rubbish. You are great, you didn’t get up to here because of nothing and I’ll be right behind you in every performance to watch out for you” hyuna looked at him with widen open eyes because of his confession. Despite all these months without talking junhyung still thinks of her as his friend. He realized he talked more than he should and coughed. “Don’t get me wrong..” he added.
“No, no, I won’t… thank you…
“It’s okay” he said, smiling.
Hyuna cried bitter tears at the instant junhyung closed the doors behind him. She might have known her feelings haven’t changed, then, why did she ask? He might have assumed the same, then, why he still is so sweet towards her? She is so stubborn, but yet she can’t forget, yet she can’t get over him.
__
Junhyung stands right behind her in every single performance but all hyuna wants is for him to stand right beside her.
Junhyung helps her and writes her raps but all hyuna wants is him writing her songs of love.
Junhyung thinks of her as a little sister, but all hyuna wants is for him to think of her as a woman.
But she puts up with it all and smiles, ‘cause she doesn’t want to lose him again. She doesn’t think she can deal with it again.
During those cold nights I pretend that he’s beside
And when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me…