it could be so nice, but the world is not ready
so my aunts wake was today. it was a pretty tough day, but im so thankful that the family that came was there. it was also nice to have so many unexpected people show up, like teachers from Mount. and what meant way more to me was that Amanda came. it not only meant the entire world to me tonight, but my family was so appreciative. a lot of my cousins friends came too so that was nice to see because my cousin micheal was especially upset.
sometimes i think i expect too much from my friends. i guess i was disapointed that some people didn't care enough to call, forget about sending a card or going to the wake. when i saw so many of my cousins friends come, and even teachers of mine..i guess i expected that some other friends would have shown their support. especially when i have supported them through the much more trivial things in life. i guess it just hurts to know that i would have done so much more for my friends. no, im not trying to make myself seem amazing, its just the truth. i send cards for break ups with boyfriends...come on now. but maybe thats just how i was brought up. i guess its one of those situations when you realize you can only count on yourself for most things in life.
so tomorrow is the funeral. im doing a reading during mass and honestly, all im hoping for right now is to get through it all. on a brighter note, tomorrow is a new day...
sometimes i think i expect too much from my friends. i guess i was disapointed that some people didn't care enough to call, forget about sending a card or going to the wake. when i saw so many of my cousins friends come, and even teachers of mine..i guess i expected that some other friends would have shown their support. especially when i have supported them through the much more trivial things in life. i guess it just hurts to know that i would have done so much more for my friends. no, im not trying to make myself seem amazing, its just the truth. i send cards for break ups with boyfriends...come on now. but maybe thats just how i was brought up. i guess its one of those situations when you realize you can only count on yourself for most things in life.
so tomorrow is the funeral. im doing a reading during mass and honestly, all im hoping for right now is to get through it all. on a brighter note, tomorrow is a new day...