Ode

[rookie_at_life]

Your call was so unexpected, almost unwelcome
You come out of nowhere and expect me to be at my best
I was unsure how to respond
Such was my anger
Such was my hurt
The things you did for me, with me, to me
I cannot forgive and I will never forget

The days since have been trying
I hated every bit of you
Wanted nothing but closure
Your jealousy would have been nice
You had a headstart and it pains me
I don't need you or want you
But today, of all days, today
I gave in

You always knew what was best, didn't you?
All along?
Do songs still remind you of me?
Do you remember the things that you said, did, felt?
I suppose I am replaceable...

I cannot, for the life of me, explain this feeling
The sand, the sea, the wind, nothing could mend me
And now, back in my reality, I have faced my faults
And, yes, you need to know, you need to hear
What I say IS IMPORTANT, and it DOES matter
You are not invincible and I am not a victim
I am so good

I hope you get what you want
But don't belittle the people I care about
You are not perfect and you are just as stubborn as me...

If not more so