with a "Y"
So this time Im wondering how will take it all in. I cant stay happy being the way I am. I know its all fun and its great being able to to things with everyone. I think I may have claustrophobia attack if I keep seeing all these people at once. Im not implying anything wrong, I just thought I could do certain things that sort of keep me busy. I like to keep my mind active or else I feel as though Im on the way to the abatoir. I cant help but see how selfish some things become. Although, of course, they weren't made out, in anyway, to be the way they ended up. I just know I need a job horribly and to change the song I am listening to..ok good got it. But anyways, I got this superb bottle of Bacardi Gold Rum from my friend Ali when she returned from her cruise. I found it to be insanely nice of her. I really didn't think I deserved it but I gladly accepted it because I am an alcoholic. I also the other day smoked a bowl with Ali and I must say it was quite nice being high...I haven't felt that in a while. She also found it in her heart to take me out to dinner at P.F. Changs. I cant express how amazingly good the food was. I was definitely taken aback by how good it was. I think I should abort from alot of my syntax condolences upon myself. I do..blah. I should just look forward and forget about tiresome thoughts that I repeatedly announce to myself. Also, I start alot of sentences with "I"..hah a clever observation? whatever...about a girl.