The Notebook
I just finished reading The Notebook again. I think though that this time I cried more than normal and I don't know why. Nicholas Sparks' books always get me, I guess thats the show of a good writer if they can envoke emotion. But I think there's more to it today. Alyssa, Laura and Kristin are all gone, again, and it makes me wonder what's happened to this past year. 3 of the best friends I've made at State hardly seem to notice me much any more. And I know that a lot of this is my own fault since I'm here so little. But it hurts now the less. I don't know what I'm going to do next year without them around so much of the time. Hopefully I end up with 3 other great people next year at University Village.
On the bulliten board and on the wall by my desk there are pictures. A bunch of Chris and I, Alyssa and Laura and Kristin, graduation parties from last year, a trip to Chicago with Katie, a scanadless one of Lindsey and I and one of the cottage. It seems to me though that there's something missing from among these pictures. There's none of Kristin or Beckie. None of my family or the other friends I've made at State. It makes me wonder if maybe its a good thing this will have to come down in the next week or so. I need to clean in a desperate kind of way, and start packing up. School ends in just over 2 weeks, and it's less than 4 weeks until I leave for study abroad. There's so much to do and not really enough time, but I just spent 3 hours reading a book, and since no one is here I'll probably spend 2 hours tonight watching the movie that goes along.
I got an e-mail today from this Library Science scholarship program I applied for saying that I didn't get accepted. My academics and interests were strong but I wasn't selected. I kind of want to know why. I've been spending a lot of time lately thinking about whay I'm going to do with my life. I want to go to grad school and get my library science degree so bad but at the same time I don't want to leave MSU. This is my home now and even though I complain about it someitmes, I love it here. This is one of my favorite places I've ever been, there's only about 2 other places that top here and I've never spent as long at those as here. And that's making my grad school choice a lot harder. Chris and I were talking a couple nights ago about where he might go for grad school or law school. None of them were here they were all on the east coast. So I looked at LIS schools on the east coast and said something about it and he said I should think about them if I didn't get into the program. The problem is I don't want to leave here to go some place not even an hour away, let alone 15 hours from here. I don't want to have to not be able to come back to watch Chris march in the band and see the Spartans play football. I wouldn't have to give it up if I went to a Big Ten school. But at the same time I'm wondering if I'm missing something by not wanting to leave. And at the same time knowing that it probably won't ever be as good as staying here. Maybe study abroad will change my mind. I guess we'll have to wait and see.
This has been a long and random post, sorry if you actually took the time to read it.
Much love if you did.
On the bulliten board and on the wall by my desk there are pictures. A bunch of Chris and I, Alyssa and Laura and Kristin, graduation parties from last year, a trip to Chicago with Katie, a scanadless one of Lindsey and I and one of the cottage. It seems to me though that there's something missing from among these pictures. There's none of Kristin or Beckie. None of my family or the other friends I've made at State. It makes me wonder if maybe its a good thing this will have to come down in the next week or so. I need to clean in a desperate kind of way, and start packing up. School ends in just over 2 weeks, and it's less than 4 weeks until I leave for study abroad. There's so much to do and not really enough time, but I just spent 3 hours reading a book, and since no one is here I'll probably spend 2 hours tonight watching the movie that goes along.
I got an e-mail today from this Library Science scholarship program I applied for saying that I didn't get accepted. My academics and interests were strong but I wasn't selected. I kind of want to know why. I've been spending a lot of time lately thinking about whay I'm going to do with my life. I want to go to grad school and get my library science degree so bad but at the same time I don't want to leave MSU. This is my home now and even though I complain about it someitmes, I love it here. This is one of my favorite places I've ever been, there's only about 2 other places that top here and I've never spent as long at those as here. And that's making my grad school choice a lot harder. Chris and I were talking a couple nights ago about where he might go for grad school or law school. None of them were here they were all on the east coast. So I looked at LIS schools on the east coast and said something about it and he said I should think about them if I didn't get into the program. The problem is I don't want to leave here to go some place not even an hour away, let alone 15 hours from here. I don't want to have to not be able to come back to watch Chris march in the band and see the Spartans play football. I wouldn't have to give it up if I went to a Big Ten school. But at the same time I'm wondering if I'm missing something by not wanting to leave. And at the same time knowing that it probably won't ever be as good as staying here. Maybe study abroad will change my mind. I guess we'll have to wait and see.
This has been a long and random post, sorry if you actually took the time to read it.
Much love if you did.