Here I Am At The Fucking Start
So I let myself down last night. I got hyped up on something I shouldn't have. I got all worked up over nothing. I just hate how I do that. I feel like I let myself down, like I betrayed myself. I told myself over and over that it's not a big deal, but I'm not gonna lie and say that I honestly wasn't affected. I was excited. More so than I should have been. In fact I'm kicking myself over writing this, but whatever. I can't help but getting caught up with her. Even after I've moved on. She'll probably always do that. Oh well. Back to the drawing boards I guess.