just VENTING!!!

[ronster_z]

school... damn it, i want to go to school! i took the semester off, had some conflict about where to transfer and everything. then before i knew it it was all too late. freakin sucks. now im really bored out of my mind. why is that no one in my family wants me to study what i want to study? its not fair, they told me that they want me to study something that would get me one of those get rich quick schemes and then go back to school and do what i want to do. i dont want to do that! its a waste of my time and their money. im really thankful that my parental unit(cant believe i just said that) is the one paying for my college education but it doesnt mean that i will do what they want just because she's the one who's paying for it. the conditions are: i can only go to university of houston and can only study business or nursing. two fields of study that i really dont want to be in. i just dont want to be a nurse or be a business man. i mean that's bullshit. i mean that is cow crap. i mean i dont want to fuck up my life.
i think when people have dreams for you it's not really good for you, unless you share the same dreams. that is not the case for me. i have my own desires, my own life, and a brain i could use to generate my own freakin dreams! i think im using the word dream too much. it's kinda losing it's meaning right now, like when you say road too many times. ro-ads. roohds. roadds. see?! now im thinking of toads when i say roads. it even looks like im spelling it worng. did i? anyway, yeah that's not fair. i say life can be vicious sometimes, most of the time in my case, and that sucks.