Real Life (and how it distracts me from what's important: Fandom)
I suspected this might happen when grad school hit with its full force, but I never expected it to hit so swiftly. I currently have 12 tabs open to LJ right now, all stories or fic searches that interested me. Have I made even a half-assed attempt to look at any of them? No. Have most of them been open since August? Yes. Do I see myself reading any of them in the near future? No. And why is this?
Simple. My interest in fandom has died. I backed out of the luciusbigbang at the beginning of the month, even though I had over 5k words written, because I knew that I wasn't going to be able to drum up enough interest to finish by the due date of Oct. 1. I'm still working on my bottom_draco fest entry, but I might have to back out of that one in the next week, too, if I don't get my historical research done. The closest I've come to involving myself in fandom recently has been to re-read a few chapters of Dept. so that I can re-familiarize myself with sections I've forgotten about before I begin writing chapter 14. I even have it outlined for the most part. I feel like an impotent man trying to get it up. It's just not going to happen. :sigh:
So, if I go silent except for updates on the shows I'm watching (Vampire Diaries is still terrible, Supernatural was sort of blah, and if Kurt/Sam doesn't happen I might spasm with rage!), this is why. Maybe I just need a holiday to get my mojo back.
In other news, my nook and I are in love. It hasn't left my side since the day I got it. And I have already read 7 books on it. Yay for e-readers!
Simple. My interest in fandom has died. I backed out of the luciusbigbang at the beginning of the month, even though I had over 5k words written, because I knew that I wasn't going to be able to drum up enough interest to finish by the due date of Oct. 1. I'm still working on my bottom_draco fest entry, but I might have to back out of that one in the next week, too, if I don't get my historical research done. The closest I've come to involving myself in fandom recently has been to re-read a few chapters of Dept. so that I can re-familiarize myself with sections I've forgotten about before I begin writing chapter 14. I even have it outlined for the most part. I feel like an impotent man trying to get it up. It's just not going to happen. :sigh:
So, if I go silent except for updates on the shows I'm watching (Vampire Diaries is still terrible, Supernatural was sort of blah, and if Kurt/Sam doesn't happen I might spasm with rage!), this is why. Maybe I just need a holiday to get my mojo back.
In other news, my nook and I are in love. It hasn't left my side since the day I got it. And I have already read 7 books on it. Yay for e-readers!