my informal goodbye

[ronnoestaaqui]

ko, well i went 2 karate this morning despite my inkling (spelling???) 2 not go b/c....i was tired. jennifer told me that jacob quit. so i should be over joyed, right??? but i'm not. in a way i'm happy but i'm also sad & also angry w/him. i went through 6 months of torture seeing him @ karate all the time b/c as soon as we break up he decides

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everyone has a jacob

[realvillageink]

honey, i can say that i know how you feel. been there, felt that, wanted to die myself. but hang in there. like ish said... uh.. ditto. ish is a wise woman. (i love aisha!! even if u dont know it, even if we're not close, i just want u to know, i hold u in high regards!!) it will take forever for you to be 'okay' whatever that means, and the pain may and probably wont ever go completely away, but... all you can do is try to fight the tears and knot in your stomach (like the one that's forming in mine now, or maybe it's the waffles i just ate at 2:15 am) and smile through it. my 'jacob' went away, or more like, was away when we broke up, although was kinda there. now, though, i can say he's all the way out, although he will always be in my mind and in my heart. it hurts really bad still, but just remember all the good that came out of it. ish is right; i firmly believe people are in ur life for a reason. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. good things, bad things, everything has purpose. everything is a new experience, everything made u a better person. and u know what? life goes on. but u did know that. the road to 'recovery' as i like to put it is long, painful, and hard, but can be made easier with the help of friends. i know i'm a few steps away from the beginning but i wouldn't be this far if it wasn't for all the hard work and support i have gotten from my girls. =) ok so not to bore you to death with my inspired response, i just wanted to say that i had a really great time tonight with you and danielle and that you mean a lot to me! so if u ever need anyone just to listen or even adivice, you have my number. =) always here for you hon. take care, god bless, and keep that smile up high. ~daph