Because we live to justify our actions
I have been a lot of things in my life, sweet, naïve, angry, irrational, clumsy, sad and just plain stupid. But never in my life did I think that someday I would be bitter. The bitterness comes mainly from the inability to forgive; myself and “others”. How do you do that? How do you forgive someone?, more importantly, how do you forgive yourself for acting on an impulse and breaking all the rules you had made to prevent the very heartache that now you don’t know how to deal with. They say time’s the biggest healer. They are wrong. The truth is that is never heals, it’s just veiled by different events that preoccupy us so that we are distracted and we forget temporarily that it hurts. Time, just like any other physical factors that never cease, at least for our intent and purposes, has no greater function in solving a problem than being present. So why am I told “give it time”, instead of “give it air” or “give it sunshine”. What’s the difference? Air and sunshine are present too and just like time they can’t fix me. In the end, I’m still scarred. It is the natural forces or my very own self that can heal the wounds, not time. That’s why ignoring a problem never works, because you change, perceptions change, but without doing something about it, the wound still exists.