Healing
Alright so for those of you who knew, my brother killed himself on early wednesday morning (see entry below) I don't think putting the details on here is really necessary or appropriate but if any of you want to know, I'm open to talk about it.
Anyway, the funeral was yesterday and considering the circumstances, it went really well. I was very impressed to see A LOT of his friends come out (which says a lot because for those of you who knew him, he didn't have many real "friends") and the fact that MY friends were there meant a lot too. And to those of you who gave cards, that meant SO MUCH MORE. So I just spent two straight days crowded by my jews who LOVE shoving food in your face so I can't really move so that IS a good thing, and thanks Jen and Paul who took me out last night to get my mind off of everything.
And to those of you concerned with my mom, she was looking pretty ghostly earlier today but on the way to my dad's she said she was feeling a little more like herself and before we left after the Havdalah service (Jewish term, don't worry if you don't know) she actually made a joke! Lame, but a joke none the less. So everything seems to be working out well and people are healing.
And SUCH a HUUUUUUUUUGE thanks goes to Chi Phi, you guys have been amazing so far and now that I don't have an actual brother, you guys sure do fill in the gap quite nicely.
And also, to Cryssi and Mamma Ball, the fact that you guys searched for my local newspaper to sign his guestbook meant A GREAT DEAL and my mom really appreciated it. I'll have to get you all together sometime.
So all in all, I'm moving along nicely. So thanks. And God bless!
HP
P.S. I also felt compelled to add my speech that was said at the funeral because many people were commenting on how moving it was. And for those who didn't know Ryan, maybe now you can get a taste of just how awesome he was.
Ryan was nothing short of an exceptional person. What he sometimes lacked in social skills he more than gained in charisma, talent, and above all else, love. There wasn't a time in his life that he wouldn't share his love and appreciation for his family and friends in one way or another through a dynamic poem, song, or heartfelt nickname no matter how tough it got. Janel, I know that you were one of the most important people in his life. I have never seen him happier and more accepted in his life and I couldn't have asked God to send you into his life at a better time, I thank you from the bottom of my heart! To my amazing family, you have raised both of us so amazing and I owe you all for each having a part in making the amazing person he was. Who knows how hard the lives we would have had would have been if you hadn't adopted us and having him as a brother and companion has made my life so much more enriching than I could have ever imagined. The toughest thing in life is when your buddy isn't by your side through the good and bad and it has been really challenging the past couple days. I ask of you one favor. For every person you care about please give them a hug and tell them that you love them because you never know when it could be the last time. Do this not for me, but for Ryan. The best son, grandson, brother, nephew, cousin, and friend that God could have ever given us. I love you man!
Anyway, the funeral was yesterday and considering the circumstances, it went really well. I was very impressed to see A LOT of his friends come out (which says a lot because for those of you who knew him, he didn't have many real "friends") and the fact that MY friends were there meant a lot too. And to those of you who gave cards, that meant SO MUCH MORE. So I just spent two straight days crowded by my jews who LOVE shoving food in your face so I can't really move so that IS a good thing, and thanks Jen and Paul who took me out last night to get my mind off of everything.
And to those of you concerned with my mom, she was looking pretty ghostly earlier today but on the way to my dad's she said she was feeling a little more like herself and before we left after the Havdalah service (Jewish term, don't worry if you don't know) she actually made a joke! Lame, but a joke none the less. So everything seems to be working out well and people are healing.
And SUCH a HUUUUUUUUUGE thanks goes to Chi Phi, you guys have been amazing so far and now that I don't have an actual brother, you guys sure do fill in the gap quite nicely.
And also, to Cryssi and Mamma Ball, the fact that you guys searched for my local newspaper to sign his guestbook meant A GREAT DEAL and my mom really appreciated it. I'll have to get you all together sometime.
So all in all, I'm moving along nicely. So thanks. And God bless!
HP
P.S. I also felt compelled to add my speech that was said at the funeral because many people were commenting on how moving it was. And for those who didn't know Ryan, maybe now you can get a taste of just how awesome he was.
Ryan was nothing short of an exceptional person. What he sometimes lacked in social skills he more than gained in charisma, talent, and above all else, love. There wasn't a time in his life that he wouldn't share his love and appreciation for his family and friends in one way or another through a dynamic poem, song, or heartfelt nickname no matter how tough it got. Janel, I know that you were one of the most important people in his life. I have never seen him happier and more accepted in his life and I couldn't have asked God to send you into his life at a better time, I thank you from the bottom of my heart! To my amazing family, you have raised both of us so amazing and I owe you all for each having a part in making the amazing person he was. Who knows how hard the lives we would have had would have been if you hadn't adopted us and having him as a brother and companion has made my life so much more enriching than I could have ever imagined. The toughest thing in life is when your buddy isn't by your side through the good and bad and it has been really challenging the past couple days. I ask of you one favor. For every person you care about please give them a hug and tell them that you love them because you never know when it could be the last time. Do this not for me, but for Ryan. The best son, grandson, brother, nephew, cousin, and friend that God could have ever given us. I love you man!