lost it all

[roninsagara]

life has come life has gone, will it return? porbably not, hope fades, eyes glazed as all that is held dear fades away, lost to the stars. why do we say the things that we say? why do we do the things that we do? only time will show all that is.

i didn't think it was posible to shoot my self in the foot so many times that it looks like swiss cheeze in one month, i was wrong... so wrong

why does my life fall apart?
why do i hate my self?
why did i have to lose that wich i held closest to my heart?
why do i make dumb choices?
why does life hate me?

i just dont know what to do with my self any more, i'm lost to my self, i need some kind of profecional help or something, i'm destroying my self and its all my fault.

cheyenne, i'm sorry love, your curent situation is all my fault, if i hadn't had done that things would be difrent. i'm sorry

i wish i could just fade away,
Ronin