no, god just no. . . .

[roninangel]

i seriously was doing very very well - i had even decided to just burn the bridge and leave just a knotted rope marking the spot in case some day we can come back to the friendship that we just don't seem capable of having now. . .

and then tonight, i was finding new music on youtube. . .

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and this just flat out broke me - it took me back to the phone call that ended it and all of the pain and heartache from all of the previous times

just dammit. . .