last night...
I dreamt I stopped giving a shit about everything I cared for… all my meanings in life just didnt mean anything to me anymore… everything was going to shit and I just stood there laughing and eating a burger.
So what do I gather from this taking a bite from this proverbial 'forbidden fruit' of my own manifestation?
What lies in dreams that i should take into my reality?
ALL of it. I'm just fed up trying so hard to care for everything and everyone putting peoples feelings and comforts and goals ahead of my own. It has gotten me nowhere it will get me nowhere, and I am sure as hell am not happier doing so.
I am who I am, past, present, or future. You can accept me for all my flaws and beauty, but ONLY for ALL my flaws and beauty, you cant just take what you want. You HAVE to take the whole package damage and goods. I ask no more and no less.
I want you to be honest, open, concise, and accept me for all that I am or nothing at all. And in return I shall do the same. no more no less. If something beautiful grows from this then lets embrace it with arms and hearts and minds open instead of closed. Its the only way to take on life god dammit and I'm not letting anyone tell me otherwise anymore.
If you are not working into my plan you are no longer in my life. Plain and simple.
I'm fucking tired of having to own it up to someone or trying to make myself fit in just to be in good graces with someone or a group of someones.
So while all the world is ending around me I shall stand there at the edge of desolation joyous. For myself I have lived by my own rules and I have done what I felt is right for me.
I shall be laughing, I shall enjoy my forbidden fruit.
So in closing a really powerful poem Ive been forming while writing this.
(untitled)
If you are scared I will take your hand
I am confident now.
I am strong now.
I am invincible now.
I am both ignorant and enlightened.
So come with me if you will
Or stand where you are
And I shall leave you behind.
Im am sorry,
But only for you
And not of my own actions.
Let's go.
Lifes too short to not have an adventure.
Fall in love with everything at least once,
Its too short to think about what may happen.
Give everything a chance.
Its time now.
Your either coming with me
Or you are not.
The choice is now yours
So what do I gather from this taking a bite from this proverbial 'forbidden fruit' of my own manifestation?
What lies in dreams that i should take into my reality?
ALL of it. I'm just fed up trying so hard to care for everything and everyone putting peoples feelings and comforts and goals ahead of my own. It has gotten me nowhere it will get me nowhere, and I am sure as hell am not happier doing so.
I am who I am, past, present, or future. You can accept me for all my flaws and beauty, but ONLY for ALL my flaws and beauty, you cant just take what you want. You HAVE to take the whole package damage and goods. I ask no more and no less.
I want you to be honest, open, concise, and accept me for all that I am or nothing at all. And in return I shall do the same. no more no less. If something beautiful grows from this then lets embrace it with arms and hearts and minds open instead of closed. Its the only way to take on life god dammit and I'm not letting anyone tell me otherwise anymore.
If you are not working into my plan you are no longer in my life. Plain and simple.
I'm fucking tired of having to own it up to someone or trying to make myself fit in just to be in good graces with someone or a group of someones.
So while all the world is ending around me I shall stand there at the edge of desolation joyous. For myself I have lived by my own rules and I have done what I felt is right for me.
I shall be laughing, I shall enjoy my forbidden fruit.
So in closing a really powerful poem Ive been forming while writing this.
(untitled)
If you are scared I will take your hand
I am confident now.
I am strong now.
I am invincible now.
I am both ignorant and enlightened.
So come with me if you will
Or stand where you are
And I shall leave you behind.
Im am sorry,
But only for you
And not of my own actions.
Let's go.
Lifes too short to not have an adventure.
Fall in love with everything at least once,
Its too short to think about what may happen.
Give everything a chance.
Its time now.
Your either coming with me
Or you are not.
The choice is now yours