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So...I feel rather...hypersensitive. Ironically, what pointed this gem of observation out was my laughing at a pathetically sweet (and obviously laughably so) wrap up to a book to put everything else on 'pause' for the next in the trilogy. (Can we get a chorus of 'dumbass' for it taking me this long to figure out? ) I laughed. Loudly. With a full-out smirk. Its been a very long time since I've laughed at anything beyond the most determined comedic efforts.
I have a lot of sadness in my life, and that disturbs me. Nothing to really laugh at, and most of the reasons stem from the choices I've made during the course of my life. I want out of these cycles so badly, but even though I'm "only" 23, I'm finding it near impossible to change sufficiently to avoid starting the cycle over again. Not that it is the easiest thing in the world to notice WHEN the cycle starts itself again. Only really notice it during the lulls after coming out of one round. Which, I suppose, means I should notice the next...hrmph.
I don't know if I even have a clue what I'm talking about, anymore.
I have a lot of sadness in my life, and that disturbs me. Nothing to really laugh at, and most of the reasons stem from the choices I've made during the course of my life. I want out of these cycles so badly, but even though I'm "only" 23, I'm finding it near impossible to change sufficiently to avoid starting the cycle over again. Not that it is the easiest thing in the world to notice WHEN the cycle starts itself again. Only really notice it during the lulls after coming out of one round. Which, I suppose, means I should notice the next...hrmph.
I don't know if I even have a clue what I'm talking about, anymore.