~*You said you loved me*~

[ronet]

But you didnt know the words to say, you said you never knew that you could ever feel this way...

I'm home, left school early. I'm so fucking sick of montville, its not even funny i need to get out of here. A.S.A.P.

I'm happy today, its kinda strange to me, but i am. I have alot of strength that i didnt have yesterday.

I don't love you enough

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[thahall]

Dearest Ronnette,

You know, I could give you a million hugs. Though a pain in the ass at times, you have been such a light and inspiration to me. There aren't many people who deserve to get some good breaks in life more than you, dear girl.

Keep it up... and please.... think about talking to the cops and to the adults in your life. You will find incompetence, you will find people less able to handle stress well than you, you will find people who try to push you into this or that course of action. But if you stand your ground, catch your breath, and say what you need to say even if your voice quakes you just might find that in some ways, you will have a load off. And in addition to the discomfort you will take on, you will also find support and you will find tools to get you out of bad situations, and weapons to defend yourself if you have to.

Trust me on this... if you do things right, and keep moving in the direction you are, with a little bit of luck, and a few good friends, you will find a whole new life opening up to you. The things that seem so overwhelming now... you will one day just shake your head and look back and wonder why you ever let them take you down.

Sure, you will have a new set of stresses, but in all likelihood you will find you have more than enough tools to handle those.

I look forward to bumping into you and talking with you this spring, and to continuing to see you find your voice and your strength.

I want to know you in two years, five years.

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[ronet]

Thomas~
I promise on everything i have control over that you will know me in 2 years, and 5 i dont plan on going anywhere.

Thomas, learn to trust me, and my judgement, i know it isnt easy but i have come this far, and i will continue to make it. Have faith in me, i know i haent been playing the responsible card lately but when it rains it pours and i have just had too much put in front of me lately.

I don't need or want anymore complications in my life, i just want to make it through. The fact that in a year i will be out of here is so refreshing and yes, i will make it to 18.

Thomas, you make me happy, probably more then you should but thats a whole nother journal reply, Thank you for being here in my life, but please realize that you can't make me do anything i am not ready for.

I ask you to hold my hand and walk with me, not drag me through. I know you just want to help and i knwo you mean best but babe, i am only one person and i need more time to deal then you would i guess.

I love you...