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In some ways my life is going awesome.
In other ways it has crashed and burned.
Despite the one that has caused so much trouble, it is entriely my own fault that I gave him the ability to.
Had I done things right it would never have been a problem.
I failed.
Now I'm losing her forever, and all the rest of the awesomeness feels unimportant, no matter how much I know it to be untrue.
I know God will provide all I need, but it doesn't stop all the bad feelings.
In other ways it has crashed and burned.
Despite the one that has caused so much trouble, it is entriely my own fault that I gave him the ability to.
Had I done things right it would never have been a problem.
I failed.
Now I'm losing her forever, and all the rest of the awesomeness feels unimportant, no matter how much I know it to be untrue.
I know God will provide all I need, but it doesn't stop all the bad feelings.