What am I searching for?
I'm not really looking for sympathy. Just a place to post a feeling that needs to get out of me before I get another stress attack.
So, Homecoming has been the big thing lately, and I agree that it is a very cool thing. Dances are cool. You get to get all dressed up, go out to dinner, do some dancing and socializing, get a slow dance with your date, then go home. Oh so so fun. But I guess it isn't always so much fun.
I honestly never thought I could feel this bad. I mean, I am watching all my friends, and I mean all of them, get their dates, talk about what they are going to do that night, dresses are another subject and I just take it all in. It's great stuff to listen to, really it is. But then you get home. You sit on your bed and wonder why you yourself don't have a date.
Well, you had one, but you ditched him because you didn't feel incredibly right with going with someone that you don't "like" like.
So, I have been just dwelling on this subject all weekend, and it sucks cuz I cannot get my mind off of it! Someone I would go with is infatuated with a freshman. And that guy keeps telling me, "Oh come on. Someone is bound to ask you!" I just say "Pfft. Yeah, right,"
It's hard. I can understand that it can be hard for anyone, but this is me this time. And another thing that puts this into perspective is that my sister has had a date to every dance since she was a freshman. And that was four years ago! I am a junior and have never ever had a date. And it makes me sad. I am not jealous of my friends, just kind of sad.
That is all.
So, Homecoming has been the big thing lately, and I agree that it is a very cool thing. Dances are cool. You get to get all dressed up, go out to dinner, do some dancing and socializing, get a slow dance with your date, then go home. Oh so so fun. But I guess it isn't always so much fun.
I honestly never thought I could feel this bad. I mean, I am watching all my friends, and I mean all of them, get their dates, talk about what they are going to do that night, dresses are another subject and I just take it all in. It's great stuff to listen to, really it is. But then you get home. You sit on your bed and wonder why you yourself don't have a date.
Well, you had one, but you ditched him because you didn't feel incredibly right with going with someone that you don't "like" like.
So, I have been just dwelling on this subject all weekend, and it sucks cuz I cannot get my mind off of it! Someone I would go with is infatuated with a freshman. And that guy keeps telling me, "Oh come on. Someone is bound to ask you!" I just say "Pfft. Yeah, right,"
It's hard. I can understand that it can be hard for anyone, but this is me this time. And another thing that puts this into perspective is that my sister has had a date to every dance since she was a freshman. And that was four years ago! I am a junior and have never ever had a date. And it makes me sad. I am not jealous of my friends, just kind of sad.
That is all.