in which laura has feelings about castiel
Okay. So. I just finished watching the first episode of the new season of Supernatural.
I was completely ready to feel vicious hatred towards the ep, but... I don't know. I had my... quibbles with it, yes, but I actually did like it, mostly because of what they ended up doing with Cas. See, I was all kinds of certain that the writers would fuck everything up and make Cas the Big Bad of the season, but they didn't, and you have no idea how happy this makes me. He went a bit cuckoo when he became God, and I have actually come to terms with the fact that he was still Cas, although a bit... altered. The biggest reason why I'm okay with this now is that I'm going the 'poor characterization' route when thinking about the whole thing, which also kinda gives me the chance to (maybe somewhat foolishly) believe that it wasn't 100% Cas in there, even though a big part of Cas did shine through: his righteousness and his want to do good, for example, even though some of those qualities became somewhat distorted. But I don't mind. Because after that massacre at the campaign office of Michelle Bachmann Walker, when he finally understood that he couldn't control the souls anymore... He was suddenly himself again. He was completely himself, and he realized how wrong he'd been and he was actually broken up about it and kept apologizing to Dean and oh my god my poor heart. :(
Which actually brings me to the second reason why I liked this episode so much: the epic Dean/Castiel at the end of the episode. I mean, sweet fucking jesus! I honestly don't even know what to say about those last five or six minutes, because I'm still trying to process it all. I mean, asdglfdhldhjhj. "I'm sorry, Dean" and then Dean's face when he thinks Cas is dead and the goddamn fucking relief when he isn't and then Dean and Bobby help Cas up and Dean is basically holding Cas' hand and doesn't want to completely let go of his arm so that he can support Cas if he doesn't have enough strength to stand and then "I'm gonna find some way to redeem myself to you" and Dean is all 'okay, yeah, one thing at a time, let's just get out of here first' and Cas is once again touching Dean and "I mean it, Dean" and the background music is making me weep because even it ships Dean/Castiel and then it's goodbye Castiel and hello Leviathan (The Leviathans? There are many of them but idk idk idk) and Dean's face when he's told that Cas has died again and fuck you feelings I don't like you. :( But. I'm actually going to stay hopeful and believe that Cas isn't dead, not really, that he's still in there somewhere and can find his way out in the end, if only so that he and Dean can have a tearful reunion before Cas dies (because I doubt that Cas will survive this season, which, yeah, so much hate, but there's really nothing I can do about it except like the show a little bit less).
Also, while I'm at it: Crowley! Lucifer! Death! Hearts everywhere, seriously. Just the fact that these three characters made a reappearance made me enjoy the episode quite a lot. Also, I really liked Sam in this episode. He believed that Cas wasn't completely gone when Dean (fuck you Dean, btw) did, and the whole wall thing was actually really interesting. I mean, one of the reasons I disliked the last episode of season 6 was the fact that the wall breaking didn't seem to have any effect on Sam whatsoever. Which, now that I think about it, actually makes sense because it was broken for like five minutes and there wasn't really any time in the episode to start exploring its effect on Sam. So yeah. Ilu Sam. For now, at least.
ALSO OH GOD CAN I JUST SAY THAT MISHA COLLINS OWNS MY FUCKING HEART. THE MAN IS PERFECT. ♥
I was completely ready to feel vicious hatred towards the ep, but... I don't know. I had my... quibbles with it, yes, but I actually did like it, mostly because of what they ended up doing with Cas. See, I was all kinds of certain that the writers would fuck everything up and make Cas the Big Bad of the season, but they didn't, and you have no idea how happy this makes me. He went a bit cuckoo when he became God, and I have actually come to terms with the fact that he was still Cas, although a bit... altered. The biggest reason why I'm okay with this now is that I'm going the 'poor characterization' route when thinking about the whole thing, which also kinda gives me the chance to (maybe somewhat foolishly) believe that it wasn't 100% Cas in there, even though a big part of Cas did shine through: his righteousness and his want to do good, for example, even though some of those qualities became somewhat distorted. But I don't mind. Because after that massacre at the campaign office of Michelle Bachmann Walker, when he finally understood that he couldn't control the souls anymore... He was suddenly himself again. He was completely himself, and he realized how wrong he'd been and he was actually broken up about it and kept apologizing to Dean and oh my god my poor heart. :(
Which actually brings me to the second reason why I liked this episode so much: the epic Dean/Castiel at the end of the episode. I mean, sweet fucking jesus! I honestly don't even know what to say about those last five or six minutes, because I'm still trying to process it all. I mean, asdglfdhldhjhj. "I'm sorry, Dean" and then Dean's face when he thinks Cas is dead and the goddamn fucking relief when he isn't and then Dean and Bobby help Cas up and Dean is basically holding Cas' hand and doesn't want to completely let go of his arm so that he can support Cas if he doesn't have enough strength to stand and then "I'm gonna find some way to redeem myself to you" and Dean is all 'okay, yeah, one thing at a time, let's just get out of here first' and Cas is once again touching Dean and "I mean it, Dean" and the background music is making me weep because even it ships Dean/Castiel and then it's goodbye Castiel and hello Leviathan (The Leviathans? There are many of them but idk idk idk) and Dean's face when he's told that Cas has died again and fuck you feelings I don't like you. :( But. I'm actually going to stay hopeful and believe that Cas isn't dead, not really, that he's still in there somewhere and can find his way out in the end, if only so that he and Dean can have a tearful reunion before Cas dies (because I doubt that Cas will survive this season, which, yeah, so much hate, but there's really nothing I can do about it except like the show a little bit less).
Also, while I'm at it: Crowley! Lucifer! Death! Hearts everywhere, seriously. Just the fact that these three characters made a reappearance made me enjoy the episode quite a lot. Also, I really liked Sam in this episode. He believed that Cas wasn't completely gone when Dean (fuck you Dean, btw) did, and the whole wall thing was actually really interesting. I mean, one of the reasons I disliked the last episode of season 6 was the fact that the wall breaking didn't seem to have any effect on Sam whatsoever. Which, now that I think about it, actually makes sense because it was broken for like five minutes and there wasn't really any time in the episode to start exploring its effect on Sam. So yeah. Ilu Sam. For now, at least.
ALSO OH GOD CAN I JUST SAY THAT MISHA COLLINS OWNS MY FUCKING HEART. THE MAN IS PERFECT. ♥