Dec 04, 2009 10:36
Dear Dr. J
How are you doing? im ok. Ive been playing adult for the last few months working and trying to go back to school and make something of myself. But you and i both know we arent here to talk about whats new or good in my life...I mean look at the title of this page.
My problem is my girlfriend...or should i say my ex. Its become painfully clear that she has a problem that is ruining my feelings for her. Long story short, she has a guy friend that used to be gay or whatever he is that shes spends an amense amount of time with. They talk, they text, and they have even went on multiple trips out of state together. Just red flags everywhere right? Yet, i stayed for 3 years with her because i was hoping she would change. She hasnt and its clear that all ive done is enable her. Even as i type, shes on the phone at 10:30am talking to him.
Im just tired of it. Nobody likes their relationship and she has been so disrespectful towards our relationship, i feel like theres nothing else i can do to try and salvage this. Im tired of the lies and the rumors that surrounds those two and i dont want to be apart of their sick games anymore. I love her so much and she just doesnt see it. Maybe she never will.
Anyways i know its time to move on because it hurts me to see that she doesnt care enough about me to stop dealing with him. I dont think she will ever find a good man because no one is willing to put up with her "friendship" with her guy friend. Its clearly deeper than what they make it out to be and maybe im the fool for staying in it for so long. I dont want to be with someone that everyone points the finger at and be like "look at her, i can believe hes still dealing with her after everything shes done to him."
I know shes has alot of personal problems from her childhood and her past relationships, but she doesnt seem to want to get professional help for it. I tried to talk to her about it and she just brushes is off like its nothing. I know i need to get my life back on track and just worry about me for now.
I dont even think i want to ever date again. Women have done nothing but let me down time and time again. I need help to recover from this and i hope by serving god again, i can truly be happy and stop looking for some woman to come into my life and make me happy. I want a woman to make me better not fulfill my needs.
So with that said, im washing my heart, mind, and soul of this relationship and im moving on. Enough is enough and its time for a change.
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