random thinking post
be glad you've played a small part in my life. well for tonight anyhows.
it got me thinking, would i rather have a person be downright rude to you in real life because the person really doesnt like you OR would i rather the person who didnt like me just smiled and pretended to like me.
i'd prefer the formal, somehow or another i dislike ppl who can pretend to that extent of acting like a saint infront of you and casually chatting you up while saying mean stuff behind your back
however, for the formal, sometimes i feel that its kinda fucked up but life sucks. i should just tell myself, why should i bother about such stupid comments i've so many other people who i know who would give me a totally different testimonial..
so yea fuck off.
another thing wl mentioned.. pride and ego.. theres a time to swallow it theres a time to hold on to it
if you find the right time, then everything will be perfect. im still adjusting myself to swallow it most of the time but sometimes, i just cant let you walk all over me that much. theres a line thats drawn between being funny and being a fucker, a line thats between a small setback and a major disappointment. dont cross this line, for at the end you shall find nothing more than yourself staring in the mirror asking yourself: "how did i manage to screw up this friendship of ours so badly?"
but was it worth it to start with anyway
so many pointless thoughts, i dont even know if i want to invite some people over during my birthday chalet.. this people are those whom i have clear doubts about friendship.. who will jump in and save you when you're drowning, who will throw you a buoy, who will watch you drown?
i have clearly seperated my friends into these boundaries. and those who matter, do know you are treasured..
have a great holidays! -)
-RomE
the start of the holidays
the end of my polydays
apart from all the other goals,
you're the one that matters most.
it got me thinking, would i rather have a person be downright rude to you in real life because the person really doesnt like you OR would i rather the person who didnt like me just smiled and pretended to like me.
i'd prefer the formal, somehow or another i dislike ppl who can pretend to that extent of acting like a saint infront of you and casually chatting you up while saying mean stuff behind your back
however, for the formal, sometimes i feel that its kinda fucked up but life sucks. i should just tell myself, why should i bother about such stupid comments i've so many other people who i know who would give me a totally different testimonial..
so yea fuck off.
another thing wl mentioned.. pride and ego.. theres a time to swallow it theres a time to hold on to it
if you find the right time, then everything will be perfect. im still adjusting myself to swallow it most of the time but sometimes, i just cant let you walk all over me that much. theres a line thats drawn between being funny and being a fucker, a line thats between a small setback and a major disappointment. dont cross this line, for at the end you shall find nothing more than yourself staring in the mirror asking yourself: "how did i manage to screw up this friendship of ours so badly?"
but was it worth it to start with anyway
so many pointless thoughts, i dont even know if i want to invite some people over during my birthday chalet.. this people are those whom i have clear doubts about friendship.. who will jump in and save you when you're drowning, who will throw you a buoy, who will watch you drown?
i have clearly seperated my friends into these boundaries. and those who matter, do know you are treasured..
have a great holidays! -)
-RomE
the start of the holidays
the end of my polydays
apart from all the other goals,
you're the one that matters most.