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im feeling a little down these days.
school is driving me crazy.
i cant stand being in own head sometimes.
i've got nice little things to look forward to, but i feel really alone sometimes.
but im not really alone at all.
its silly to think so, but i guess being stuck in your room to study for three days and only going out for fire-drills makes you feel like that.
on another, not completely unrelated topic, my room is so clean. and everything is in boxes or strewn around ready to be put in my suitcase (that i found on the street). sometimes i like being on my own, sometimes its really scary.
i miss my bike a lot. she makes me happy with her red shiny pain-coat and her squeaky breaks. im going to wear lots of skirts this summer. and ride my bike. and im going to buy a pair of pants that makes my ass look nice. and ride my bike in those too.
exams make people crazy. school is insane when you really think about it. its a prescription for mild mental illness....all condensed between three hour tests that youre supposed to "prove your worth", "show us what you learned", and not "waste your parents money".
i convince myself i dont care but i feel bad, so i study. and i study so i go crazy.
in conclusion i want the sun to shine and i want to have ice-cream dripping all over my mouth and fingers and i want to aviod putting sunscreen on and be buried in the sand up to my neck.
school is driving me crazy.
i cant stand being in own head sometimes.
i've got nice little things to look forward to, but i feel really alone sometimes.
but im not really alone at all.
its silly to think so, but i guess being stuck in your room to study for three days and only going out for fire-drills makes you feel like that.
on another, not completely unrelated topic, my room is so clean. and everything is in boxes or strewn around ready to be put in my suitcase (that i found on the street). sometimes i like being on my own, sometimes its really scary.
i miss my bike a lot. she makes me happy with her red shiny pain-coat and her squeaky breaks. im going to wear lots of skirts this summer. and ride my bike. and im going to buy a pair of pants that makes my ass look nice. and ride my bike in those too.
exams make people crazy. school is insane when you really think about it. its a prescription for mild mental illness....all condensed between three hour tests that youre supposed to "prove your worth", "show us what you learned", and not "waste your parents money".
i convince myself i dont care but i feel bad, so i study. and i study so i go crazy.
in conclusion i want the sun to shine and i want to have ice-cream dripping all over my mouth and fingers and i want to aviod putting sunscreen on and be buried in the sand up to my neck.