Stuff..
First lets talk about some fun good stuff. Thanksgiving - my sister picked me up and her kids and I went to NYC to watch the Thanksgiving Day Parade.
Ohhh RENT. Now I was lucky to arrange a midnight private showing for RENT for some folks at Penn State. It was amazing. The next day my sister came to pick me up and her and my roommate Laura - the two most important women in my life went to see it together. Wow. It was hard. When Angel was dying I was balling... I had my sister on my shoulder crying and Laura holding my hand crying... I think to some degree it brought a realization of what could be. I am sure they were both thinking the same. I love them both so much. Thanks Charlene and Laura for going with me.
Now onto my dad. I really feel this relationship going south. So I went to the doctor to see what’s up... Things have not been the same since I had geardia. So... b/c I have been running to the bathroom non-stop I got a small hemorrhoid - that’s what the blood was from. But I am still feeling like crap so they are going to do a colonoscopy to see what’s going on. - Dec 7th. So I was talking with my sister and she tells me that Jackie - my dad's new wife (my mom's old best friend - yeah it's unique) was going with my sister to the apt. ummm... hello... did anyone ever think about me? Maybe I didn’t want Jackie to go? Her or my father never discussed it with me, never called nothing, but they both talked about it with my sister. Their theory was that Jackie could go to keep my sister company during the drive up to my place and that Jackie could keep my sister occupied during the procedure. Nothing about me... it frustrates me that they would make these plans with out even asking me. See Jackie has never called me, never really talked to me about anything medically nothing, my dad said last night that I was just being self-centered and that Jackie tried to reach out to me and that it would never happen again. I say, no Jackie never reached out to me never called me never talked to me about it, when they wanted was to get Jackie and my sister together - closer together. See my sister is closer to my dad then I am so this was all about an opportunity for Jackie to be with my sister, not about being there for me. I think it would have been different if Jackie called and was like hey I heard your going in for this procedure do you mind if I come along... or something like that... nothing like that happened, i had to find out she was coming from someone else. I think it would have been different if she had called now and then to say hi, she has never called me - literally. Whats up with that? So my dad was a total ass last night, I tried to talk to him a few nights ago and he blew up on me and walked away, last night was no better, I tried to again offer him a perspective from me and it was all about him and his power - I am self centered b/c I was concerned about someone tagging along for a medical procedure that has to do with me. See no one will replace my mom. Don't even try. I am open to Jackie being part of the family but come on lets make an effort other then pushing your way onto me. Talk to me ask to come, show interest. Blah, I am really thinking of now sharing Christmas with them. I am real frustrated they think i am just suppose to accept Jackie into my life like that, They have only been married since Sept... blah..
I'm open to what people think... Back to work I go...
Tom
Ohhh RENT. Now I was lucky to arrange a midnight private showing for RENT for some folks at Penn State. It was amazing. The next day my sister came to pick me up and her and my roommate Laura - the two most important women in my life went to see it together. Wow. It was hard. When Angel was dying I was balling... I had my sister on my shoulder crying and Laura holding my hand crying... I think to some degree it brought a realization of what could be. I am sure they were both thinking the same. I love them both so much. Thanks Charlene and Laura for going with me.
Now onto my dad. I really feel this relationship going south. So I went to the doctor to see what’s up... Things have not been the same since I had geardia. So... b/c I have been running to the bathroom non-stop I got a small hemorrhoid - that’s what the blood was from. But I am still feeling like crap so they are going to do a colonoscopy to see what’s going on. - Dec 7th. So I was talking with my sister and she tells me that Jackie - my dad's new wife (my mom's old best friend - yeah it's unique) was going with my sister to the apt. ummm... hello... did anyone ever think about me? Maybe I didn’t want Jackie to go? Her or my father never discussed it with me, never called nothing, but they both talked about it with my sister. Their theory was that Jackie could go to keep my sister company during the drive up to my place and that Jackie could keep my sister occupied during the procedure. Nothing about me... it frustrates me that they would make these plans with out even asking me. See Jackie has never called me, never really talked to me about anything medically nothing, my dad said last night that I was just being self-centered and that Jackie tried to reach out to me and that it would never happen again. I say, no Jackie never reached out to me never called me never talked to me about it, when they wanted was to get Jackie and my sister together - closer together. See my sister is closer to my dad then I am so this was all about an opportunity for Jackie to be with my sister, not about being there for me. I think it would have been different if Jackie called and was like hey I heard your going in for this procedure do you mind if I come along... or something like that... nothing like that happened, i had to find out she was coming from someone else. I think it would have been different if she had called now and then to say hi, she has never called me - literally. Whats up with that? So my dad was a total ass last night, I tried to talk to him a few nights ago and he blew up on me and walked away, last night was no better, I tried to again offer him a perspective from me and it was all about him and his power - I am self centered b/c I was concerned about someone tagging along for a medical procedure that has to do with me. See no one will replace my mom. Don't even try. I am open to Jackie being part of the family but come on lets make an effort other then pushing your way onto me. Talk to me ask to come, show interest. Blah, I am really thinking of now sharing Christmas with them. I am real frustrated they think i am just suppose to accept Jackie into my life like that, They have only been married since Sept... blah..
I'm open to what people think... Back to work I go...
Tom