mom is very ill and pale, in bed with oxygen
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Poor mama is very ill today. She is so pale and won't seem to wake up. I wonder. Theresa, the hospice cleaning lady, is here.
This illness of mom's feels different. WAY unlike the times she's been in the hospital and I've taken her hand and looked into her eyes and spent about ten minutes with her and then was told it was not her time. This is different. Something is happening here.
Dad is hysterical. I sent him to the store to get eggs, stain because mom wants the pond posts stained and the little chair set below the stairs painted in primary colors, and to license his car and register and license the trailer.
Last night was the best night I've had in 12 years, once Dino stopped panting. How can so much GOOD go on at the same time as so much BAD? I've never understood that one. At least if we can get the trailer pulled to the campground beside the nice older gentleman who lives there with his wife, he will be able to keep an eye on it and us, and I can send dad up to the canyon where he can breathe and cry where no one can see him. It's deeply spiritual in that canyon. God is everywhere. remember the scripture from the gospel of thomas......lift a stone and you will find me there. It would be so good for dad to have a place to go. He's had no break since mom became bedbound other than short trips to the deck, long horrible trips to the store that exhaust her and make her have fits, or trips to the bathroom.