my evening with mom and dad
Things have gone from bad to worse today.....I'm just going to go downstairs. I washed the dishes and the clothes and vacuumed and I'm still just a lazy slob. That's life in the big city I guess. I just told mom that it did not mean I didn't care just because I didn't get to something the exact moment she said to jump. It doesn't mean I don't love her if she wants me to do something I've already done, or she doesn't remember I did the dishes twice yesterday and again today--except the silverware was still in the water when I was called away and she had to push start. I love her so much but sometimes she can be downright vicious. I may not be able to stay here when I'm not working. I knew that from the start. But most of the time she's so sweet and wonderful and I am blessed with the best mother in the world. For mother's day I bought her the hummingbird sitting on the edge of a nest filled with babies trinket box. She will like that I think. I also thought since she has been having so much trouble with the big 160 ipod I'd get her an 8 gig nano.....but I'm having trouble figuring it out myself. She will like it, too. But I'm not accustomed to being treated like a lazy daughter who cares nothing for her mother.....I am used to being treated like a highly competent, 48 year old woman who cares for everyone around her and is good at her job.
Robin Rebecca Hacking-Beltrami Thank goodness tomorrow is another day. I love you mom. But I'm still the same person I was at 17 and we are still going to rub up wrong much of the time. Joe says please come home.....what I need is a decent job I can just get an apartment with...with Dino of course. But jobs are so hard to come by I have to keep the one I have, which allows me to earn only around 12000 a year working 7-8 months. Well below poverty level but better than most here in Utah. What to do. Just the best I can. I know dad gets tired and irritable but he doesn't need to take it out on me just because I'm the low rung on the ladder.
Gardee-loo!
Spent much of the day writing and am happy with what i've done. I'm really tired out. It doesn't feel good when everybody believes all I did all day was lay in bed. I feel sick and tired and down. I hope tomorrow is a better day.