So its been a while....
It feels like my life, my home life specifically is going pretty well, otherwise things aren't.
My parents took me off the car insurance because it's too expensive, it sucks. Now I have to try to find rides to school, from my parents, grandparents, friends and sometimes take the bus. The only up side is that I don't have to spend $200 on a parking pass (because I really don't have the money) and I don't need to pay for gas.
Second, my cat Tiger has been missing for ten days. I've checked the Peterborough Humane Society, and the Lakefield Animal Welfare Society: nothing. I almost cried leaving both of them, I couldn't think of coming home without her. I think maybe I'll try the vets office. She's a very friendly cat, it wouldn't surprise me if someone found her too take her home and then took her to the vet (she has this thing, when she purrs she starts drooling. She doesn't have rabies, it's just a thing). I'm not sure what I'll do if she doesn't come home. I'm going to put out posters and offer a reward, besides that I don't know what to do. I'm not going to give up looking, I just can't. My mom says it's a bad sign we haven't even seen her, and things the the wolves or foxes got to her. I can't even stand the thought. I've been afraid to write this down, how I feel about it, and her possibly not coming home. I think mainly it's that we are a culture dominated by the written word, if something is written down it's considered solid evidence, truth and you can't contest it. I was afraid that if I wrote down that she's missing and might not come back, she won't. I really need to get out of this mind frame. Either way, it's very depressing and I hope work tomorrow goes well, because I won't be in any mood to do anything.
On another animal related note, my dog Sassy isn't doing well. She has a broken hip (says my dad, I'm not so sure), she's also had a very upset stomach for the past few days. I'm really worried about her, she's pretty old, and she's just got this look in her eyes like she's given up on most things. Things like going up and down stairs and trying to fight for her food/water dish in the kitchen with the other dogs. I'm worried about her, my dad says if he takes her to the vet, he's having her put down. Normally if she was really hurt I'd be ok with that, but the thing is she was my Great-grandma's dog. My Great-grandma who died in November, whom I was very close with. I see Sassy as the last link that I have with my grandma and I'm really not ready to give that up.
I seem to have a real problem with letting go lately. I know it's bad, and it's something that I really need to work on, but it just seems like everything I hold near and dear is leaving. Maybe not leaving forever in some cases, but it's all at once and it feel like a tonne of bricks just bitched slapped me. I've been trying really hard, I've been really strong, I haven't cried in like 5 days.
To top it off, Fleming is being a dumb ass and hasn't put up my schedule yet, I was suppose to get it four days ago! I have a life ya know! I have lots of plans and I really need to know what's going on with school, stupid jerks. And they changed the portal around, it's all messed up, I don't like it at all.
Besides that, today is pay day. I'm looking forward to my check, I'm going out drinking Friday and I really need that extra cash to buy some tequila, or well to get someone to buy me tequila because I'm not 19 yet. Whatever.