our first night wandering in dreams...

[romancefromafar]

and you call yourself true while you smile and call me fake and tell me to take it somehwere else. because you couldnt handle me and my love. Well i might leave but the presence of me and the tightning of your neck will make you remember me. And the knife you stuck in my back might as well been placed thru my heart. Pierce with your earrings that hang like a nuce to take my last breath. And i'll hold in my air to taste my own blood as it spills thru my lungs. So the next time you see my I'll be six feet under with my name engraved in your heart. And you'll test your will to live without me and say it doesnt matter. Prove to yourself you never really loved me at all. And years after I'm gone you'll think of me when the blossom trees fall while you're laying in the spring grass under a cloud spewn sky. And match those clouds to memories of me and see me with my hair in my face and my stare, my eyes filled with love. the same eyes filled with love that you ripped out of sunlight, so I would never love again. So the next time you see a falling star you'll wonder where I am and why you ever let me go.

some old stuff that i found that i had written before. seems to suit this situation really well now. being hurt is the worst thing ever. im not sure ill ever get over it.

im still in love. very deeply in love but how can this be? is this possible to be hurt this much and still be in love??