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Hi All!!
I went to SU for alumni weekend. It was fun! I did alumni band and got tuba shoulder. I stayed with Lynn and we had fun. I saw a girl eat a pita and then puke it up on M Street. I don't miss that. I saw all my friends (not all-helen and josie!!!) and lost my voice screaming at the game.
I miss my friends. I don't like New York anymore. I'm tired of it. Surrounded by people but sooooo lonely. Stressed out over a job that barely pays enough to pay my rent and bills. Living in a basement for 800 a month and thinking "wow what a deal in this good neighborhood." I'm going to make changes now. I have to change, or live in misery and depression. I love my friends, my apartment is nice and my church is awsome, but it's not home. I don't feel like I'm at home. Home isn't my parents house, but it's a place where I fit in. I don't fit in here. I don't know why for sure, but it's probably because I wasn't raised here.
I dunno, i should be less emotional when I make decisions, but as time goes by....I become more emotional. I cry for everything and I don;t know why. Oh well. I'm 26, I should be starting a career to work in that I like, or starting a family or something. I need to think more. Offer opinions if you please.
Love you all!