Off to see the wizard...
Okay, so maybe it's not as much the wizard but more like Kyle's relatives...but then again, both are pretty intimidating. If you're wondering, I'm at San Gabriel right now which is about maybe half an hour away from Los Angeles, in Kyle's grandparents' (Gramma and Grampa Havens) big house, on Kyle's laptop, since I am one of the few poor kids in his circle of friends without a laptop. Sad, really. I'm also half-watching, in great amusement, as the Great Kyle Havens himself attempts to change a faulty lightbulb. Well okay, I'll give him credit...three lightbulbs. Nevertheless, it is something I recommend all of you watching at least once in your life.
Anyhow, so San Gabriel. It's actually really nice and pretty here. A rather small town, but surprisingly, there are, I'm 98.9% sure, more Asians here than Whites. I mean, there's a Chinese plaza and everything! The scenery here is amazing too! The streets are nicely paved, and from what I’ve seen, most of the lawns are cut, and there are a lot of nice houses here. Like, seriously.
***5 hours later***
Obviously, some time has passed since I started this entry, but Kyle almost fell of the chair he was standing on, then he got baby-ish, and I ended up having to hold the chair while he changed the lightbulbs, then me and Kyle decided to get some dinner at that Chinese plaza. The name escapes me for the moment, but next time I pass there, I’ll be sure to write it down.
So I guess Chinese girls don’t exactly go out with a lot of white guys in that area cause there was some serious staring going on at that plaza directed at us by yours truly, some other kids, and older Chinese couples, but mostly elderly people whose frowns seemed to deepen each time I spoke English. Maybe I was just swimming in my usual paranoia, but maybe I wasn’t.
So Gramma and Grampa Havens are really nice people, but they ask a lot of questions. Now on the other hand, there are Kyle’s two aunts, Lilith and Marie, one uncle Brian, and his annoying cousins David and Matt, both in the early years of high school = immature assholes. Uncle Brian is pretty funny, but he smokes and drinks more than enough, and he totally looks like the type who goes to the strip club…twice a day. As for Auntie Lilith and Marie? Well they were nice at first, and then they got nosy and kinda weird so I was more than a little grateful when Gramma and Grampa Havens insisted that we stayed at their house instead of Auntie Marie’s. *whew*
So it’s 1:41am and I’m still up. Kyle’s sleeping beside me in my bed right now, but thankfully, he doesn’t snore…loudly. Sorry to say that there is a bit of angst to this entry, so here goes...
What the hell am I doing in San Gabriel in a bed with Kyle Havens, who I thought I was completely done with, visiting his relatives?!?
Okay for those who are confused, here’s the lowdown: I dated Kyle before and we hit it off, but then things happened, and he ended up ignoring me and basically stopped being my friend for almost 5 months before approaching me again, then ignoring me again, and so on and so forth, until I finally confronted him about it and I told him to just forget it if he keeps doing that cause really? It’s not cool at all. But about maybe less than two weeks ago, he approached me again, said a lotta stuff, and asked me to go out with him again.
Granted, I said no the first few times, but then I eventually said yes, and in a very short amount of time, it was like those 6 months of silence hadn’t happened, and we were back to normal. I never could hold a grudge…softhearted…pathetic, really. Then he asks me to accompany him on this trip and what do I do? Don’t think about anything else and just said yes. Stupid stupid stupid!
So here I am, still wondering what the hell is wrong with me. But then again, I have feelings for Kyle that I haven’t had for a really long time and I guess it’s just easier to be able to fill up that gap. But what happens in two months when he goes to college? I’m just gonna be alone again, so why am I letting myself pursue something that is, excuse the cliché, but doomed to fail?
Wow I do have a motherload of questions for…well, I guess myself. But instead of blowing it all out awkwardly for everyone to read on lj, I’m thinking some sleep would do me some good…and some coffee in the morning…and of course, that ever-so-refreshing morning breath from Kyle’s mouth. But I have to admit, even though things are going really crappy right now for my emotional psyche, this trip is making me feel a lot better, and Kyle is really trying this time. So I guess I should just go with the flow and let things happen, huh.
Anyhow, so San Gabriel. It's actually really nice and pretty here. A rather small town, but surprisingly, there are, I'm 98.9% sure, more Asians here than Whites. I mean, there's a Chinese plaza and everything! The scenery here is amazing too! The streets are nicely paved, and from what I’ve seen, most of the lawns are cut, and there are a lot of nice houses here. Like, seriously.
***5 hours later***
Obviously, some time has passed since I started this entry, but Kyle almost fell of the chair he was standing on, then he got baby-ish, and I ended up having to hold the chair while he changed the lightbulbs, then me and Kyle decided to get some dinner at that Chinese plaza. The name escapes me for the moment, but next time I pass there, I’ll be sure to write it down.
So I guess Chinese girls don’t exactly go out with a lot of white guys in that area cause there was some serious staring going on at that plaza directed at us by yours truly, some other kids, and older Chinese couples, but mostly elderly people whose frowns seemed to deepen each time I spoke English. Maybe I was just swimming in my usual paranoia, but maybe I wasn’t.
So Gramma and Grampa Havens are really nice people, but they ask a lot of questions. Now on the other hand, there are Kyle’s two aunts, Lilith and Marie, one uncle Brian, and his annoying cousins David and Matt, both in the early years of high school = immature assholes. Uncle Brian is pretty funny, but he smokes and drinks more than enough, and he totally looks like the type who goes to the strip club…twice a day. As for Auntie Lilith and Marie? Well they were nice at first, and then they got nosy and kinda weird so I was more than a little grateful when Gramma and Grampa Havens insisted that we stayed at their house instead of Auntie Marie’s. *whew*
So it’s 1:41am and I’m still up. Kyle’s sleeping beside me in my bed right now, but thankfully, he doesn’t snore…loudly. Sorry to say that there is a bit of angst to this entry, so here goes...
What the hell am I doing in San Gabriel in a bed with Kyle Havens, who I thought I was completely done with, visiting his relatives?!?
Okay for those who are confused, here’s the lowdown: I dated Kyle before and we hit it off, but then things happened, and he ended up ignoring me and basically stopped being my friend for almost 5 months before approaching me again, then ignoring me again, and so on and so forth, until I finally confronted him about it and I told him to just forget it if he keeps doing that cause really? It’s not cool at all. But about maybe less than two weeks ago, he approached me again, said a lotta stuff, and asked me to go out with him again.
Granted, I said no the first few times, but then I eventually said yes, and in a very short amount of time, it was like those 6 months of silence hadn’t happened, and we were back to normal. I never could hold a grudge…softhearted…pathetic, really. Then he asks me to accompany him on this trip and what do I do? Don’t think about anything else and just said yes. Stupid stupid stupid!
So here I am, still wondering what the hell is wrong with me. But then again, I have feelings for Kyle that I haven’t had for a really long time and I guess it’s just easier to be able to fill up that gap. But what happens in two months when he goes to college? I’m just gonna be alone again, so why am I letting myself pursue something that is, excuse the cliché, but doomed to fail?
Wow I do have a motherload of questions for…well, I guess myself. But instead of blowing it all out awkwardly for everyone to read on lj, I’m thinking some sleep would do me some good…and some coffee in the morning…and of course, that ever-so-refreshing morning breath from Kyle’s mouth. But I have to admit, even though things are going really crappy right now for my emotional psyche, this trip is making me feel a lot better, and Kyle is really trying this time. So I guess I should just go with the flow and let things happen, huh.