ugh
heads up, this is a lame post.
(you had your warning.) i'm sick of being alone on the weekends.
i have friends, and i feel bad that i don't always have time to see them during the week since it's hard to match up our schedules, but i'm usually wide open on the weekends. however, i have mostly random friends from different places and they have their own groups of friends who they go out with on the weekends. and while i'm sure some of them would invite me to whatever parties and what not they're going to, it's hard for me to feel comfortable when my friends are drunk and i'm trying to keep track of them, and i don't know anyone else, and i'm sober because i think beer is disgusting, and i'm awkard.
that's why i like state news parties - i don't feel awkward because i know and like most of the people there, so i have a great time, and there's jungle juice (so i am really looking forward to the SN party on friday)
but other than going to magdalena's last night i don't think i've really gone out at school since i've been back from break.
basically i think it's pathetic that i'm always so busy and yet i'm never busy during the time i could be out doing stuff and having fun.
and i kind of hate that i don't have a group of friends. but i guess that's kind of how i've always been, floating around to different groups and never staying in one place. i'm not sure if that's by choice, but i need to do something about it.
i really need to hang out with some new people.
(you had your warning.) i'm sick of being alone on the weekends.
i have friends, and i feel bad that i don't always have time to see them during the week since it's hard to match up our schedules, but i'm usually wide open on the weekends. however, i have mostly random friends from different places and they have their own groups of friends who they go out with on the weekends. and while i'm sure some of them would invite me to whatever parties and what not they're going to, it's hard for me to feel comfortable when my friends are drunk and i'm trying to keep track of them, and i don't know anyone else, and i'm sober because i think beer is disgusting, and i'm awkard.
that's why i like state news parties - i don't feel awkward because i know and like most of the people there, so i have a great time, and there's jungle juice (so i am really looking forward to the SN party on friday)
but other than going to magdalena's last night i don't think i've really gone out at school since i've been back from break.
basically i think it's pathetic that i'm always so busy and yet i'm never busy during the time i could be out doing stuff and having fun.
and i kind of hate that i don't have a group of friends. but i guess that's kind of how i've always been, floating around to different groups and never staying in one place. i'm not sure if that's by choice, but i need to do something about it.
i really need to hang out with some new people.