I'll be wishing I was there with you
Love is love is love, yeah? And so if I happen to fall deeply, madly, unabashedly in love with one Bellatrix Black, nothing shoulder matter except for the fact that I am happy. It's a pretty big if, I know, but it's one of those very real ifs that happen anyway whether by chance or not. Tequila is a stupid drink, but at least it made me ballsy enough to kiss her, and who knows what might have happened if I hadn't remembered that I kinda-sorta- made out with her in the first place?
So right. I'm a wee bit in love with a woman. My friend. My dear friend. I'm insanely in love with my friend, who is a lady, who my friends don't quite approve of, who comes from a family who definitely won't approve of this. The whole bloody world won't approve of this, but when you love someone and they love you back, why do you even need approval?
Things could have happened a lot differently, and I know that now. Could have ended up with Benjy, had he decided he liked girls more and me more than that, had I grown those balls and actually told him that I think I might have adored him completely. Could have ended up alone too, staying at my parents' house. Wasn't the case though.
Head over heels for Bellatrix Black. That's me. She's funny and sweet and beautiful and caring and loving, and I couldn't ask for anything more.
You know what? Being a muffin girl forever wouldn't be quite so bad.