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So yea, i went down to the clinic today and got all that shit done...i got: blood drawn, my junk fondled by an old black lady, peed in a cup, filled out a bunch of paperwork, and got lectured on smoking. Other than that i dont know...Then the lady that took the blood, she was filling out her papaerwork and she asked me "If your HIV test does come back positive will you try and take your own life? or someone elses?" And im already under enough anxiety and stress over this whole thing from the get go..but im not going to kill myself or anyone else..fuck that. If my test does come back positive i know what will happen...my entire future will be fucked, everything i had planned will be completly and utterly fucked. No wife, no family, no kids...i mine as well just get a bunch of cats and be depressed for the rest of my days or something...because my life would be basiclly over..hows this for a pick-up line "Hey, your cute..you want to go out on a date sometime? hey btw i got AIDS" i swear it'll work everytime! im just dwelling over the situation but i cant stop thinking about it and it pisses me off. So i think im gunna try and just talk to some of the people i've been with within the past few years, and see if they've taken blood tests for this kind of thing and see what they came back with. On a better note...HAPPY CINCO DE MAYO! Steve and bigredmyk are comin over later today, and we're gunna hook up with the Capn and make it happen...and maybe some Tiquila so hopefully it will help me take my mind off of the situation...I just have to stay occupied for the next week so i dont sit and think about it well thats all for me im bored, so i might take some quizzes or something...no one on AIM to talk to really *shrug*