peace, man
I just had one of those moments where the universe tries to reassure you that it’s all going to be just fine. unfortunately, I am not feeling particularly trustful of the universe right now.
so there are these homeless hippies who hang out by my office. everything they wear is made out of super bright funky yarn and they’re always knitting. or smoking joints. etc. anyway they’re cool. so today I asked them for a lighter, and the one girl one asked me for a cigarette, which I gave her (oh aside, when smokers say “I can quit at any time” we really do believe it but we really can’t. it’s legitimately very difficult. I don’t doubt that a lot of my current bleak outlook correlates to the sudden decrease in the levels of nicotine in my system). then she tells me I have something for you too and I say oh yeah? and then she pulls a pink and green yarn bracelet out of her bicycle bag and ties it on me. it’s supposed to represent love and peace apparently. I showed her my peace sign tattoo, she told me she loved me and not to change myself, to keep shining.
I’m tired of people wanting me to go out and be a representative of all things positive and optimistic in the world. like yeah if I were homeless and covered in yarn and high all day I’d probably be pretty happy too. unfortunately I haven’t gone crazy enough yet to do that.
hmm, maybe that’s the trick. maybe I should just go join those people. like seriously if there’s some lesson I’m supposed to be learning right now, the only thing I can think it is that this shit isn’t working for me.
leslie even commented on my sudden gloomy state. grr. I AM ALLOWED TO BE GLOOMY YA’LL. just let me wallow for a little while please.
I mean whatever. srsly. aunt judy Thursday, Anthony d tomorrow, andi/rosa/roomies tonight/ b. rose this weekend/ we will have a new apartment in 10 days. it’s all bueno. I recognize that it’s all bueno.
and if my boss wants to hate me and think I’m incompetent, she is absolutely allowed to think that. and if I want to quit, I am absolutely allowed to do that. done and done.
ha I seriously think I’m going to go pick up some new yarn/knitting needles on the way home. knitting is fun anyway.
roomies I’m going to kmart after work do you guys need anything?
the hippy lady was very nice, and I know she had good intentions, and I don’t know where my unbounded love and sense of human connection has gone today, but I just can’t feel it.
so there are these homeless hippies who hang out by my office. everything they wear is made out of super bright funky yarn and they’re always knitting. or smoking joints. etc. anyway they’re cool. so today I asked them for a lighter, and the one girl one asked me for a cigarette, which I gave her (oh aside, when smokers say “I can quit at any time” we really do believe it but we really can’t. it’s legitimately very difficult. I don’t doubt that a lot of my current bleak outlook correlates to the sudden decrease in the levels of nicotine in my system). then she tells me I have something for you too and I say oh yeah? and then she pulls a pink and green yarn bracelet out of her bicycle bag and ties it on me. it’s supposed to represent love and peace apparently. I showed her my peace sign tattoo, she told me she loved me and not to change myself, to keep shining.
I’m tired of people wanting me to go out and be a representative of all things positive and optimistic in the world. like yeah if I were homeless and covered in yarn and high all day I’d probably be pretty happy too. unfortunately I haven’t gone crazy enough yet to do that.
hmm, maybe that’s the trick. maybe I should just go join those people. like seriously if there’s some lesson I’m supposed to be learning right now, the only thing I can think it is that this shit isn’t working for me.
leslie even commented on my sudden gloomy state. grr. I AM ALLOWED TO BE GLOOMY YA’LL. just let me wallow for a little while please.
I mean whatever. srsly. aunt judy Thursday, Anthony d tomorrow, andi/rosa/roomies tonight/ b. rose this weekend/ we will have a new apartment in 10 days. it’s all bueno. I recognize that it’s all bueno.
and if my boss wants to hate me and think I’m incompetent, she is absolutely allowed to think that. and if I want to quit, I am absolutely allowed to do that. done and done.
ha I seriously think I’m going to go pick up some new yarn/knitting needles on the way home. knitting is fun anyway.
roomies I’m going to kmart after work do you guys need anything?
the hippy lady was very nice, and I know she had good intentions, and I don’t know where my unbounded love and sense of human connection has gone today, but I just can’t feel it.