i had some dreams, they were clouds in my coffee

[rollawaythedew]

i decided to come back to livejournal.. i know, i know



life has been completely horrible, at least all of the things that matter
my best of best friends no longer has any need for me
i really never thought that this could happen
i feel like every part of me is dead inside and nothing helps
im just clinging to the hope that true love never dies
you can never forget the ones you love, right?

i dont know, im just trying to focus on the positives... i got two kittens a couple weeks ago.. they were champ and cammie at the humane society, eight weeks old, but i took the liberty of renaming them samson and delilah.. theyre brother and sister so they look a lot alike, but i felt bad taking them away from their other sister :[ .. he has an all gray tail with a white tip and hers is gray tiger stripe, he has two spots on his body and she has three, and he has a smudge of gray next to his nose and she has it around her right eye

here they are on the first night i got them:



champ



again



delilah in red, samson 'champ' in blue

the next day:



champ (my favorite :])



they never sleep in there anymore



:]



my baybees

the next day:







today:



and last, but not least, what im looking like now-a-days


only less angry, more sullen

i dont know, i just thought that he would always need me the way i need him, maybe i was wrong, but i still have hope that im not :\