if you love something let it go - it will come back if it was meant to be.

[roll_the_dice12]

which is a nice saying. i wish it were as easy to beleive as it is to read.

i dont understand why i am so sad. we aren't broken up - and valentines day is going to be sooo much fun. 
but theres just something like lurking in the dark that just makes me feel like crap.

mayb it could b that the one person i trust. the one person i am absolutly in love with. the one person i can confide it. the one person who understands me. the one person i have shared sooo many memories with  - - -

::wants to test our relationship::

blah. i just wish it had been a dream or something. more like a nitemare - but all the same, i wish i could wake up from it.

i dont know what else to do but sit here. i dont want to go to class today. i dont want to go to work.

all i want to do is wake up - or fall asleep forever.

unfortuanatly while the second option would be a hell of alot easier - all my "falling asleep forever" methods have been confiscated (sp?) so thats out of the question. 
i mean, i am home by myself right now - so i suppose we could make falling asleep forever happen - but i am to sad to even do that.

i just want my life back. i want everything i am familier with and love back.

is that to much to ask for??