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I'M STILL TAKING A NAP like I said... two minutes ago, pfft. But you know, even if I had seen this on my f-list before making the other entry, I would've made them separate anyway. Hopefully this'll help me cool down enough that I can fall asleep in the first place.
I'll continue the 30 Day memes eventually. I promise.
Ten Day Meme
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. BUT PROBABLY NEVER WILL.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
1. I wish I could be entirely truthful with you. I tell you that I am, but honestly? I'm not. There's things I hold back, things I gloss over to keep on a happy face. But there's things in our shared past I haven't been able to work myself past, even though it's a non-issue now. And no, it's probably not what you think. Either way it's something stupid, so I'll likely never talk about it anyway.
2. I want you and him to be happy together someday. I really, really do.
3. I look up to you. You're better at this sort of thing than I could ever be, even though you say I'm the good one. I just wish I could work up the nerve to IM you again, because I think we could be friends. I'm just too nervous.
4. I wish it could be like it used to be, between us. We used to talk all the time, but then we just drifted apart. No, we're still close. We just don't seem to be at the same place at the same time anymore. But I miss our chats.
5. You too, "brother." I miss you too, and I miss our chats. But honestly, I'm a little jealous because you seem a lot closer to other people, and I guess I just hold myself back. I probably shouldn't, but I can't help myself.
6. I think about you everyday. There's still a little niggling line of doubt at the back of my mind that you lied to me, but I doubt everything these days. I hope wherever you are you're happy, especially with all the troubles you had. And I want you to know, whenever a character of mine needs an alias, I name her after you.
7. You're another one I admire. I'm sorry I never came through on going to the place I said I would, where you play. I just don't think he was a good match. And I don't care what other people say; I never was one to pay attention to internet wank. You're another person I think I could be friends with, if I could just work up the nerve to at least wave. Thank you, though, for all the clicks.
8. I wonder if you remember me. It's been years since we lost touch. I still occasionally think of the IMs we had though. Do you remember me as I remember you?
9. I'm sorry it couldn't have been different between us. I'm sorry I didn't have the courage to tell you right, instead of beating around the bush. I hope you're doing well.
10. ...Thank you. For everything. For being my sounding block, my comfort, my loyal friend, even if you'd never actually use the word "friend." It's alright though, I know. We know. Just... thank you.
I'll continue the 30 Day memes eventually. I promise.
Ten Day Meme
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. BUT PROBABLY NEVER WILL.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
1. I wish I could be entirely truthful with you. I tell you that I am, but honestly? I'm not. There's things I hold back, things I gloss over to keep on a happy face. But there's things in our shared past I haven't been able to work myself past, even though it's a non-issue now. And no, it's probably not what you think. Either way it's something stupid, so I'll likely never talk about it anyway.
2. I want you and him to be happy together someday. I really, really do.
3. I look up to you. You're better at this sort of thing than I could ever be, even though you say I'm the good one. I just wish I could work up the nerve to IM you again, because I think we could be friends. I'm just too nervous.
4. I wish it could be like it used to be, between us. We used to talk all the time, but then we just drifted apart. No, we're still close. We just don't seem to be at the same place at the same time anymore. But I miss our chats.
5. You too, "brother." I miss you too, and I miss our chats. But honestly, I'm a little jealous because you seem a lot closer to other people, and I guess I just hold myself back. I probably shouldn't, but I can't help myself.
6. I think about you everyday. There's still a little niggling line of doubt at the back of my mind that you lied to me, but I doubt everything these days. I hope wherever you are you're happy, especially with all the troubles you had. And I want you to know, whenever a character of mine needs an alias, I name her after you.
7. You're another one I admire. I'm sorry I never came through on going to the place I said I would, where you play. I just don't think he was a good match. And I don't care what other people say; I never was one to pay attention to internet wank. You're another person I think I could be friends with, if I could just work up the nerve to at least wave. Thank you, though, for all the clicks.
8. I wonder if you remember me. It's been years since we lost touch. I still occasionally think of the IMs we had though. Do you remember me as I remember you?
9. I'm sorry it couldn't have been different between us. I'm sorry I didn't have the courage to tell you right, instead of beating around the bush. I hope you're doing well.
10. ...Thank you. For everything. For being my sounding block, my comfort, my loyal friend, even if you'd never actually use the word "friend." It's alright though, I know. We know. Just... thank you.