A little about me...
As I've traveled in my day to day life, those that know me personally know my character, and how I am usually NOT with crowds, and sometimes not really hardly with people in general, outside work or something. My personality is one that is off beat from the main flow; strange at times, goofy, witty, depressed at some times and happy at others. This of course results in much rejection from the regular crowds, (Mind you this is the psychological way of describing myself), and some ridicule. Some of it is brought apon my self, and some of it is the result of those who would find their energy by picking on the weak. I would not consider myself so much weak as I would think of myself as more quiet and listening.
In this strange thing called life I've had to deal with a lot of rejection and loneliness, which I've basically come to accept. My co-workers 99-100 times aren't interested in me, but more find a tolerance. The only ones that I've seen any potential bonds with are teen-agers, but I avoid those due to the fact that I'm in a situation where I need more interaction with folks my own age, and it kills me that the only ones I can seem to find around here are married with children. More drama than I can handle at times there. I've tried bonding with some, tried to form friendships, but I've been labeled as weird, creepy, and the likes.
Most of the women I've run into have been annoying as all hell. The good ones are few and far between and almost always no where NEAR my location. One was mormon and wanted me to join her church, and I'd rather not. :P Another lives in Las Vegas, would be a great companion and realizes the value in the "nice guy" (Me.), but one thing or another has prevented us from ever even visiting. It's been three years since I met her, but we do maintain a good solid friendship from afar. Another, is about to end a five year relationship with her ex boyfriend who never proposed, got lazy and didn't attend to any of her personal needs in their relationship. (Bottom line is the kids. I'm not ready for dad-hood yet.) One ran away, one closed the door and asked that we never speak again. One was so crazy that she would, and I tell you no lie, would cut you if you ever pissed her off in a relationship. (lol No thank you there. I enjoy my good health and semi good looks. :P)
It's been rough as most can relate. So each day I strive to press on, fighting the tears because that's all I've known how to do, and refusing to completely give up. This life is not for the faint of heart. Advice is always welcomed. Same for comfort and constructive criticism.
For now, peace out folks. It's time to live another day.
In this strange thing called life I've had to deal with a lot of rejection and loneliness, which I've basically come to accept. My co-workers 99-100 times aren't interested in me, but more find a tolerance. The only ones that I've seen any potential bonds with are teen-agers, but I avoid those due to the fact that I'm in a situation where I need more interaction with folks my own age, and it kills me that the only ones I can seem to find around here are married with children. More drama than I can handle at times there. I've tried bonding with some, tried to form friendships, but I've been labeled as weird, creepy, and the likes.
Most of the women I've run into have been annoying as all hell. The good ones are few and far between and almost always no where NEAR my location. One was mormon and wanted me to join her church, and I'd rather not. :P Another lives in Las Vegas, would be a great companion and realizes the value in the "nice guy" (Me.), but one thing or another has prevented us from ever even visiting. It's been three years since I met her, but we do maintain a good solid friendship from afar. Another, is about to end a five year relationship with her ex boyfriend who never proposed, got lazy and didn't attend to any of her personal needs in their relationship. (Bottom line is the kids. I'm not ready for dad-hood yet.) One ran away, one closed the door and asked that we never speak again. One was so crazy that she would, and I tell you no lie, would cut you if you ever pissed her off in a relationship. (lol No thank you there. I enjoy my good health and semi good looks. :P)
It's been rough as most can relate. So each day I strive to press on, fighting the tears because that's all I've known how to do, and refusing to completely give up. This life is not for the faint of heart. Advice is always welcomed. Same for comfort and constructive criticism.
For now, peace out folks. It's time to live another day.