I'm such a bitch
Justin and I got in a fight today, yes, our FIRST EVER.. and is was a little weird... It seemed like it was me yelling at him, and him trying to make me happy.. I HATE THAT. The whole, "yes dear, no dear, i was wrong hunny" just so we dont argue... and then, there is me, the whole yelling, and screaming.
The fight was over Finances (what else) and it was nothing but ME yelling, and getting upset, and that bothers me. Why cant he yell too.
So he is out of work, because he injured his knee. He has been out of work for a little over a week, and with us moving out, me being in school(with out the time to work a whole lot), I dont have a job, and he isnt working, i just dont think things are going to work out.
We are in debt with cell phone bills, medical bills, and School loans, and i am not going to e able to go to school, AND work enough to get out of debt, pay rent, buy stuf for the apartment, and raise enough money to go back to school in May.
It is just hard, because ever since the day we met, he has had some kind of joint pain, or injust which disables him to work at times. and he talks about being a firefighter... THERE IS NO WAY.
I love the kid to death, but it seems like I have to do all the work, plus go to school for US to get by. I know it is not his fault that he has all these problems... but I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT...
and i am going to get VERY jealous VERY fast when i come home form school and he's still in bed, then i go off to work, and come home, and he is on the couch watching TV or playing video games.....
It is going to casue problems very fast.
I feel like such a bitch because he WANTS to work and support me, but he cant... i am just worried that he is always going to have some kind of pain, or injury, and i am going to wear out FAST. Then i am going to drop out of school, and work full time at a bullshit job that i hate, and have nothing but a bullshit life, and sick boyfriend, and nothing but alcohol to fall back on .
Ok.. well i htink it is obvious that i need advise.. i dont know what to do.
please ANYONE, HELP ME !!!!!
<3
Sincerely,
Coley
The fight was over Finances (what else) and it was nothing but ME yelling, and getting upset, and that bothers me. Why cant he yell too.
So he is out of work, because he injured his knee. He has been out of work for a little over a week, and with us moving out, me being in school(with out the time to work a whole lot), I dont have a job, and he isnt working, i just dont think things are going to work out.
We are in debt with cell phone bills, medical bills, and School loans, and i am not going to e able to go to school, AND work enough to get out of debt, pay rent, buy stuf for the apartment, and raise enough money to go back to school in May.
It is just hard, because ever since the day we met, he has had some kind of joint pain, or injust which disables him to work at times. and he talks about being a firefighter... THERE IS NO WAY.
I love the kid to death, but it seems like I have to do all the work, plus go to school for US to get by. I know it is not his fault that he has all these problems... but I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT...
and i am going to get VERY jealous VERY fast when i come home form school and he's still in bed, then i go off to work, and come home, and he is on the couch watching TV or playing video games.....
It is going to casue problems very fast.
I feel like such a bitch because he WANTS to work and support me, but he cant... i am just worried that he is always going to have some kind of pain, or injury, and i am going to wear out FAST. Then i am going to drop out of school, and work full time at a bullshit job that i hate, and have nothing but a bullshit life, and sick boyfriend, and nothing but alcohol to fall back on .
Ok.. well i htink it is obvious that i need advise.. i dont know what to do.
please ANYONE, HELP ME !!!!!
<3
Sincerely,
Coley