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I was at a small restaurant...little rundown place down hallendale blvd.Food was great.I saw a woman walk in,she sat down at the table across from my father and I.She came acompanied by a book.The waitress asked her if she was waiting for someone,the woman giggle'd shyly and said,"No just me." I was distracted by my food,but when i happened to look up her food was just arriving.She got a little carafe of wine and I s'pose she had been reading her book the whole time because as she poured her glass,she couldn't take her eye's off of her book.A sight like that would depress most,a lonely woman dining alone on a friday night....but she really didn't seem to mind.Her face was lit up from the words in her book and her eyes followed every line of that romance novel.Ya know, I could be terribly wrong and she could be very depressed wishing she was someone else,but from what I gather'd....I saw a woman who was happy to be living,who was happy to live her life...who was happy.I kept eating,when a couple sat down at the table next to her.They seem'd uptight and very fucking snobbish,but I dont know them so how would I know.But they sat across from eachother..the man's wife got up to go to the bathroom...and he just sat there....this man seemed wealthy,sucessful,had a wife,maybe kids.....but he seemed so fucking depressed,rubbing his eyes and his face the whole time.
After I left all those images were burned into the back of my eye lids.I dont know why but the whole time I was watching these people....I'm not going to ruin my chance at living.I've fucked up alot of things so far...but my 17 year old body hides weak knee's and fragile wrists...

I had to write that.I dont know why..I couldn't stop thinkin about it.Anyway.Got my Ibanez AFS77T semi hollow body guitar.Im so happy.It was cheaper than i expected...and it sounds amazing.Now i just have to get my band going.
yep
bye.