The New Year
Ugh, its been so long since I posted. My last post was just before I left for the Dir en grey show. After that, school got ridiculously busy and I had not the time nor the energy to care about LJ. I still plan to post up my pictures from the show, but not until I get my new computer.
Yep, a new computer. My old one hadn't been working since...mid October I think? It just...stopped working. I turned it on and windows refused to load. I had avoided having my brother(the computer guru) look at it because I was so stressed out with school and didn't want to hear any bad news. But, I finally had him look at it, and sure enough, it was bad news. My hard drive is completely busted, so I lost all my files. :( I spent 70 bucks on a new hard drive, hoping that would fix the problem, but then my brother figured out that the motherboard was also broken. So basically, I need a new computer. He and I are going to sit down soon and buy all the parts for a new one online.
I'm really bummed that this happened. I feel like every time I get a really good collection of files and music, something horrible happens and i lose them all. I've been putting off getting an external hard drive to back everything up on because I didn't want to pend the money, but obviously I can't avoid it now.
Also, this is a big blow to my already hurting bank account. Thank God I've been putting a lot of the money from the military into a savings account. But still, I plan on using that money in the future when I stop getting the checks every month, so spending it now makes me nervous.
(My father passed away when I was about six years old. He was in the Marines, so the military has been giving my family checks every month since then to help pay our way through school. The money stops after you're 22 1/2 though. My brothers have since stopped receiving theirs, so they increased the amount they send to me. Its more than I ought to spend in a month though, so I've been putting half of it into savings. Whew. Long story, I know.)
So yeah, new computer. Even though I'm bummed about the loss of the old one, I'm pretty excited to be getting a newer, nicer one. When that comes in I'll make some picture posts.
I hope everyone had a good New Year's! I went down to Austin to hang out with Chelsea and Susan, and it was some good times. No drunken debauchery though; I'm not that exciting, lol.
2008 was a pretty good year. I got to travel a lot, and I have plenty of good, exciting memories.
Lately though, I've been feeling very impatient with my life. This is my fourth year in school. I have one more after this, but I'm already feeling some "senoiritis". I think most of this feeling has been brought upon my my workload. My classes are so stressful, and more often than not they just make me feel worse about myself, not better. I'm just really ready to move on with my life. I have a lot to look forward to after college, and I've been waiting patiently for all of those things for so long now, and I'm just feeling frustrated that I'm not already there.
So, this new year doesn't really feel like a new year, or a fresh start, or any of that. It just feels like another year when I have to just keep trudging though my school work, desperately awaiting that light that is supposedly at the end of this tunnel. Depressing, huh?
I don't mean to sound so much like an emo kid. Its just hard...
I reevaluated my priorities at the beginning of the fall semester. My two main focuses where going to be my schoolwork and my boyfriend, both of which I hadn't been paying enough attention to. I think I did a good job of that this past semester. My grades weren't as great as I had hoped (2 A's and 2 B's), but they were pretty good. And my relationship with Jameson has gotten better.
So my new year's resolutions are pretty much the same; to keep working hard and try to improve the balance of school, friends, Jameson, family, and time for myself. Its really pretty difficult to create a solid balance. Something always loses out. This past semester it was taking care of myself that lost. I either didn't have the time or didn't have the energy to cook, clean, work out, eat healthy, etc. I'm sure thats a big part of why I'm feeling a little miserable. So that's my big resolution. I'm going to get Rachel and I's apartment clean and organized so I can start the year off right. I'm going to clean out my car and stop using it as storage. I signed up to take a pilates class every Tuesday and Thursday. And I have to go, its for a grade, lol. And I'm going to really try and cook more and eat better.
I'm sorry that this post is such a downer. I just feel like my life right now is more about surviving rather than enjoying it. But I'm still an optimist, and I'm sure things will work themselves out. I'm excited for whats to come.
Yep, a new computer. My old one hadn't been working since...mid October I think? It just...stopped working. I turned it on and windows refused to load. I had avoided having my brother(the computer guru) look at it because I was so stressed out with school and didn't want to hear any bad news. But, I finally had him look at it, and sure enough, it was bad news. My hard drive is completely busted, so I lost all my files. :( I spent 70 bucks on a new hard drive, hoping that would fix the problem, but then my brother figured out that the motherboard was also broken. So basically, I need a new computer. He and I are going to sit down soon and buy all the parts for a new one online.
I'm really bummed that this happened. I feel like every time I get a really good collection of files and music, something horrible happens and i lose them all. I've been putting off getting an external hard drive to back everything up on because I didn't want to pend the money, but obviously I can't avoid it now.
Also, this is a big blow to my already hurting bank account. Thank God I've been putting a lot of the money from the military into a savings account. But still, I plan on using that money in the future when I stop getting the checks every month, so spending it now makes me nervous.
(My father passed away when I was about six years old. He was in the Marines, so the military has been giving my family checks every month since then to help pay our way through school. The money stops after you're 22 1/2 though. My brothers have since stopped receiving theirs, so they increased the amount they send to me. Its more than I ought to spend in a month though, so I've been putting half of it into savings. Whew. Long story, I know.)
So yeah, new computer. Even though I'm bummed about the loss of the old one, I'm pretty excited to be getting a newer, nicer one. When that comes in I'll make some picture posts.
I hope everyone had a good New Year's! I went down to Austin to hang out with Chelsea and Susan, and it was some good times. No drunken debauchery though; I'm not that exciting, lol.
2008 was a pretty good year. I got to travel a lot, and I have plenty of good, exciting memories.
Lately though, I've been feeling very impatient with my life. This is my fourth year in school. I have one more after this, but I'm already feeling some "senoiritis". I think most of this feeling has been brought upon my my workload. My classes are so stressful, and more often than not they just make me feel worse about myself, not better. I'm just really ready to move on with my life. I have a lot to look forward to after college, and I've been waiting patiently for all of those things for so long now, and I'm just feeling frustrated that I'm not already there.
So, this new year doesn't really feel like a new year, or a fresh start, or any of that. It just feels like another year when I have to just keep trudging though my school work, desperately awaiting that light that is supposedly at the end of this tunnel. Depressing, huh?
I don't mean to sound so much like an emo kid. Its just hard...
I reevaluated my priorities at the beginning of the fall semester. My two main focuses where going to be my schoolwork and my boyfriend, both of which I hadn't been paying enough attention to. I think I did a good job of that this past semester. My grades weren't as great as I had hoped (2 A's and 2 B's), but they were pretty good. And my relationship with Jameson has gotten better.
So my new year's resolutions are pretty much the same; to keep working hard and try to improve the balance of school, friends, Jameson, family, and time for myself. Its really pretty difficult to create a solid balance. Something always loses out. This past semester it was taking care of myself that lost. I either didn't have the time or didn't have the energy to cook, clean, work out, eat healthy, etc. I'm sure thats a big part of why I'm feeling a little miserable. So that's my big resolution. I'm going to get Rachel and I's apartment clean and organized so I can start the year off right. I'm going to clean out my car and stop using it as storage. I signed up to take a pilates class every Tuesday and Thursday. And I have to go, its for a grade, lol. And I'm going to really try and cook more and eat better.
I'm sorry that this post is such a downer. I just feel like my life right now is more about surviving rather than enjoying it. But I'm still an optimist, and I'm sure things will work themselves out. I'm excited for whats to come.