Life Sucks, xD
So lately people have been depressed, and it can't be helped I suppose, because the world totally sucks right now. Every week another little girl is abducted, raped and killed, the world is in turmoil, we have the worst president ever *cough*...
Anyway, I really don't want to sound like a Debbie Downer, but maybe it will make people feel better about their own crap. So here's a rundown of the past 2 months:
-Larien
Anyway, I really don't want to sound like a Debbie Downer, but maybe it will make people feel better about their own crap. So here's a rundown of the past 2 months:
- My mother broke her femur in Nov. 06. The initial surgery implanted a plate and screws, which broke in August 07. The second surgery removed the broken hardware and replaced it with a rod. Last Dec., the rod broke (which apparently never happens) and on May 13th she had her third surgery to remove the rod. This time we used a new surgeon, and once he began operating, he realized the bone had not healed AT ALL in two and a half years - so he put in yet another plate and a bone graft. Three months bedrest. Again. No walking at all. He believes the drug Fosamax is to blame, and we're currently suing them.
- Because of the above, my mother has spent a combined total of one year unable to walk and in horrible pain. And me? I've had to halt my entire life - no one in my family has helped us at all with this, so I have been a nurse/therapist/maid/chef/housekeeper for nearly three years. I can't work. I can't go to school. I can't do anything. I was supposed to move to Orlando, start pre-Vet school, and then go to Japan to study abroad. I had to cancel all of it.
- Last week, my grandmother had a stroke. She needs surgery on her carotid artery.
- Same night, my uncle had a heart attack. He's doing alright, stints were implanted.
- I have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia (a term doctors use to describe full body constant pain) but I don't believe I even have it - I think it's just my body breaking down as a result of the chemo and radiation for my cancer at 11.
- My chronic, daily headaches are worse than ever - concluding that my sinus passages are most likely too narrow (another pleasant radiation side effect), I will have to soon undergo surgery to open them.
- The scar tissue where the tumor was is so painful that yawning is excruciating. An MRI revealed my jaw is a mangled mess from the cancer, and my doctor said recent 10+ year post chemo/radiation studies indicate this sort of pain is attributed to another cancer, bone necropsy, or both. I have to follow up every two months to make sure neither is happening. If it does, I'll have to have surgery to replace the entire jaw bone.
- My dog is extremely sick.
- I haven't been able to ride my horse in months.
- A close friend's horse who I knew since the day she bought him in '99 fell and broke both of his front legs and was put down on the spot.
-Larien