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Tell me if any of you ever experienced this in your life..
Picture this..you could be doing anything...driving down the road...watching T.V., talking on the phone, talking to someone else..not really realizing what's going on in the world right now because you're in deep thought..not really thinking about anything in particular..just thinking about your life and what you're going to do next..then all the sudden something just smacks you in the face like a brick wall...No, I'm not talking about literally..I'm talking about INSPIRATION, MOTIVATION, A BREAKTHROUGH..
I had one of those today..I was thinking about Jesse..ofcourse..of all things..and..I almost started to cry..because I remember ever little thing we ever did together..and I never remember anything..even if my life depended on it ..but for some reason I always seem to remember him..funny how life works eh?..ANYWAYS..
Why am I crying over this jerk..I realized..I did the right thing and I didn't have to sacrifce anything..IT WAS A RELATIONSHIP THAT WENT BAD..it was empty...shit like this happens..every fucking day to everyone...ask anyone..everyone in the world...and I'm literally meaning EVERYONE..has had someone that was with someone else who ripped their heart out and chopped it to pieces..everyone and I don't give a fuck who you are..has lost something they loved..or got their feelings hurt..so why am I feeling like..I'm the only one in the world with feelings..
I was beign selfish..to let that pig actually have a grip on my emotions..I look at it like this..I did everything right..I loved that guy..I treated him and the relationship with respect and never lowered myself to his level, I was committed..I got out of it being hurt but you know what..I was true to myself..
I lost a little faith in relationships..but I realized..not all guys are like him..and one day when I'm least expecting it, I will find the right one, just not right now..things will work out..just can't think narrow mindly about things..
I forgive Jesse..and forgivness isn't about having to like the person and forgetting what they did..forgivness is about letting go of the emotions you've held onto for so long..the ones that are interferring with your real life..forgive what he did so you can move on with your life..
Thanks for reading..bye guys.
Picture this..you could be doing anything...driving down the road...watching T.V., talking on the phone, talking to someone else..not really realizing what's going on in the world right now because you're in deep thought..not really thinking about anything in particular..just thinking about your life and what you're going to do next..then all the sudden something just smacks you in the face like a brick wall...No, I'm not talking about literally..I'm talking about INSPIRATION, MOTIVATION, A BREAKTHROUGH..
I had one of those today..I was thinking about Jesse..ofcourse..of all things..and..I almost started to cry..because I remember ever little thing we ever did together..and I never remember anything..even if my life depended on it ..but for some reason I always seem to remember him..funny how life works eh?..ANYWAYS..
Why am I crying over this jerk..I realized..I did the right thing and I didn't have to sacrifce anything..IT WAS A RELATIONSHIP THAT WENT BAD..it was empty...shit like this happens..every fucking day to everyone...ask anyone..everyone in the world...and I'm literally meaning EVERYONE..has had someone that was with someone else who ripped their heart out and chopped it to pieces..everyone and I don't give a fuck who you are..has lost something they loved..or got their feelings hurt..so why am I feeling like..I'm the only one in the world with feelings..
I was beign selfish..to let that pig actually have a grip on my emotions..I look at it like this..I did everything right..I loved that guy..I treated him and the relationship with respect and never lowered myself to his level, I was committed..I got out of it being hurt but you know what..I was true to myself..
I lost a little faith in relationships..but I realized..not all guys are like him..and one day when I'm least expecting it, I will find the right one, just not right now..things will work out..just can't think narrow mindly about things..
I forgive Jesse..and forgivness isn't about having to like the person and forgetting what they did..forgivness is about letting go of the emotions you've held onto for so long..the ones that are interferring with your real life..forgive what he did so you can move on with your life..
Thanks for reading..bye guys.