Alone
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
For you x3
Meh...I figure that song is about me...
I'm a loser, changed my myspace profile, basically just changed the about me part, I don't want to know other people, not as if they talk to you anyway, changed my faceparty one as well, besides I got shouted at on faceparty, I only go on there for one person and they already know me...
I'm just tired of people, might stop using this thing, I mean the only people I talk to on here are not really online anymore, so what's the point....
I might delete the myspace thing, again, no one talks to me on there, I'm just a fad for the week, then people forget about me, or have a go at me for not talking to them, heh you know you can just as easily talk to me too, seems you expect me to be the one to always make contact and then sometimes when I do, you think I'm nagging or whatever, nah, friends talk, funny thing huh? friends, talking, heh....Might delte the rest of my facepary profile, and I might get rid of my DeviantArt....
Today was kinda crap, I don't fit in here, really badly, I only have 3 maybe 4 close friends, that's it and I can't see them alot, so what's the point, I'm lucky if I talk to them once a month sometimes....
I don't know where I want to go, there is no where that I can go really, meh everything is just pretty much screwed up and I don't want to try and make it better this time, there is nothing I can do anyway....
I'm sorry that I screwed up, I screwed up on everything didn't I, well I'm paying the price.......
I have nothing to say anymore, I'll just be repeating myself...
Goodbye?
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
For you x3
Meh...I figure that song is about me...
I'm a loser, changed my myspace profile, basically just changed the about me part, I don't want to know other people, not as if they talk to you anyway, changed my faceparty one as well, besides I got shouted at on faceparty, I only go on there for one person and they already know me...
I'm just tired of people, might stop using this thing, I mean the only people I talk to on here are not really online anymore, so what's the point....
I might delete the myspace thing, again, no one talks to me on there, I'm just a fad for the week, then people forget about me, or have a go at me for not talking to them, heh you know you can just as easily talk to me too, seems you expect me to be the one to always make contact and then sometimes when I do, you think I'm nagging or whatever, nah, friends talk, funny thing huh? friends, talking, heh....Might delte the rest of my facepary profile, and I might get rid of my DeviantArt....
Today was kinda crap, I don't fit in here, really badly, I only have 3 maybe 4 close friends, that's it and I can't see them alot, so what's the point, I'm lucky if I talk to them once a month sometimes....
I don't know where I want to go, there is no where that I can go really, meh everything is just pretty much screwed up and I don't want to try and make it better this time, there is nothing I can do anyway....
I'm sorry that I screwed up, I screwed up on everything didn't I, well I'm paying the price.......
I have nothing to say anymore, I'll just be repeating myself...
Goodbye?