sigh

[roguemunky]

i feel like i have a gaping void, right outta my side. Im just missing a part of me. Yea, its over and it blows but how are you supposed to release something that you are completely infatuated with? Things like that just dont stop. Im crusing at a skillion miles per hour and now Im supposed to stop but my brakes are out. Everyone on the highway that I pass by just kinda stares at me with a glare that just says " You are going way to fast and you need to slow down". And maybe I do, but Im not sure how to go about that. Though on the upside I did have a couple of personal revelations late last night, the wisdom will dissemenate Im sure. Im also going through a voluntary detox for myself for just one week. Not because I think I have a problem or because I dont like drugs or alcohol, but Im gonna let my body go all natural for a little bit and see what happens. It just seems that sometimes everyone has this great idea of what they think you should do, but none of it seems like sound advice. Though one thing is for sure, understanding pain makes you impervious to it. Its just the time it takes. Put me through a meat grinder, at this point i would consider that theraputic.

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adam