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its been a long day. i keep waking up at night. hopefully tonight i'll have a full nights rest.
it seems like today has kinda ruined a lot. im going to just blame it on the whole day. all the things i was looking forward to can't happen anymore for some reason or another.
im sure tomarrow will be better, but today didn't help me at all.
for once i want something to happen for me. it seems like everything i do i have to work around other peoples schedules, i have to sacrafice to make things work. i always have to be happy when something great happens to someone. sometimes i do, but sometimes it hurts more than anything else. i know it sounds selfish. but everything that happens to me has to be moved or changed or canceled for some stupid reason or another.
yea sure"welcome to the real world jenni" but it doesn't mean i have to like it. or go along with it.
next week a guy from a camp in colorado is supposed to call me back. im praying that he has openings still for his "wrangler" positions in his camp. me and 4 other people would take care of 30 horses in this summer camp and bring the kids on trail rides. it would be a dream for me. ive never been to colorado, but from pictures, its beautiful. if hes not hiring, im going to be really disappointed. i haven't found anything other camps that i like.
i feel so tired mentally from dealing with all the disappointment today. i think i will just go to bed.
it seems like today has kinda ruined a lot. im going to just blame it on the whole day. all the things i was looking forward to can't happen anymore for some reason or another.
im sure tomarrow will be better, but today didn't help me at all.
for once i want something to happen for me. it seems like everything i do i have to work around other peoples schedules, i have to sacrafice to make things work. i always have to be happy when something great happens to someone. sometimes i do, but sometimes it hurts more than anything else. i know it sounds selfish. but everything that happens to me has to be moved or changed or canceled for some stupid reason or another.
yea sure"welcome to the real world jenni" but it doesn't mean i have to like it. or go along with it.
next week a guy from a camp in colorado is supposed to call me back. im praying that he has openings still for his "wrangler" positions in his camp. me and 4 other people would take care of 30 horses in this summer camp and bring the kids on trail rides. it would be a dream for me. ive never been to colorado, but from pictures, its beautiful. if hes not hiring, im going to be really disappointed. i haven't found anything other camps that i like.
i feel so tired mentally from dealing with all the disappointment today. i think i will just go to bed.