Happy Hallowe'en!
► Happy Hallowe'en!
While I wasn't sick with a cold or the flu, I've been mostly bedridden for the past several days and seemingly on the verge of a minor nervous breakdown. Seriously, my nervous have been utter shit. Barely able to function, wracked with worry, fear, anxiety, panic, and exhaustion. It'd been nearly 2 weeks since I last left the apartment. Everything just keeping me from focusing or functioning at my low level of normalcy.
Additionally, my sleep has been erratic and I've been barely eating too. Which was compounded by my inability to go out to get groceries (I was down to a few frozen corndogs in the freezer, nothing else). Several weeks of going out 2, 3 or 4 times a week just wears me down before the inevitable crash. Happily, I think I'm coming out of the funk, and I was able to pass the time watching several of the DVDs in my staggering unwatched stack. At least that's something.
Finally had to suck it up and go to Walmart tonight with my sister, because I couldn't put off getting groceries any longer. Thank goodness for it being open 24 hours.
► Tonight I had a bit of a shock when I went to check my bank account online. I had given my sister my monthly check for my share of the rent and bills on Wednesday, post dated for the 30th. Dean deposited the check that night. The money was removed from my account yesterday, the 29th, putting me almost $500 in the hole. I don't have "overdraft" so the check bounced and I'm facing a $40 penalty charge.
I had a bit of a panic attack, surprisingly not as big as I would have expected given how I've been this week. I called my bank's 24 hour service and the nice lady I spoke to told me it was a bank error and completely their fault (she apologized several times) and that they simply processed the check early. The money was "put back" today (I'm back in the black), additionally she put $40 into my account to cover the automated $40 penalty fee that will be taken out later tonight. So I won't have to pay for their error.
Wrote out a new check for Dean and hopefully she can cash it tomorrow (her bank is open on Saturdays) and things will be fine for our rent due on Monday. Still, I'll be worried all weekend.
Things like this really freak me out and set off my mental alarms until I actually begin to work on resolving them. It's a mixture of my crap nerves and my near constant worry that I'm always just a single inexplicable incident away from total ruination and in the gutter. Really, it's a wonder I'm not a quivering mess all the time.
► I finally watched Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen 2 nights ago. Honestly, I actually enjoyed the movie quite a bit. Sure, it's not a prestige film, or a great one, but it was an entertaining and solid B - movie. Optimus Prime was awesome, Megan Fox was curvy and sexy*, and all the internet-hated dumb comic relief stuff didn't actually bother me. Also, I found the fights much easier to follow than the first.
Fun film. I got what I wanted out of it.
* I seem to have an odd love/hate thing for Fox.
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Quote of the Moment
Conal Cochran: Halloween... the festival of Samhain! The last great one took place three thousand years ago, when the hills ran red... with the blood of animals and children.
Daniel Challis: Sacrifices.
Conal Cochran: It was part of our world... our craft.
Daniel Challis: Witchcraft.
Conal Cochran: To us, it was a way of controlling our environment. It's not so different now... it's time again. In the end... we don't decide these things, you know... the planets do. They're in alignment, and it's time again. The world's going to change tonight, doctor, I'm glad you'll be able to watch it. And... happy Halloween.
- Halloween III: Season of the Witch (1982)
Drinking: Tropicana orange juice
Last Watched: Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen (2009); The Uninvited (2009); The Howling (1981); The Private Life of Sherlock Holmes (1970); The Changeling (1980); Dr. Strangelove or How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964); Juggernaut (1974); Shine (1996); The Night Listener (2006); THX 1138 (1971);
While I wasn't sick with a cold or the flu, I've been mostly bedridden for the past several days and seemingly on the verge of a minor nervous breakdown. Seriously, my nervous have been utter shit. Barely able to function, wracked with worry, fear, anxiety, panic, and exhaustion. It'd been nearly 2 weeks since I last left the apartment. Everything just keeping me from focusing or functioning at my low level of normalcy.
Additionally, my sleep has been erratic and I've been barely eating too. Which was compounded by my inability to go out to get groceries (I was down to a few frozen corndogs in the freezer, nothing else). Several weeks of going out 2, 3 or 4 times a week just wears me down before the inevitable crash. Happily, I think I'm coming out of the funk, and I was able to pass the time watching several of the DVDs in my staggering unwatched stack. At least that's something.
Finally had to suck it up and go to Walmart tonight with my sister, because I couldn't put off getting groceries any longer. Thank goodness for it being open 24 hours.
► Tonight I had a bit of a shock when I went to check my bank account online. I had given my sister my monthly check for my share of the rent and bills on Wednesday, post dated for the 30th. Dean deposited the check that night. The money was removed from my account yesterday, the 29th, putting me almost $500 in the hole. I don't have "overdraft" so the check bounced and I'm facing a $40 penalty charge.
I had a bit of a panic attack, surprisingly not as big as I would have expected given how I've been this week. I called my bank's 24 hour service and the nice lady I spoke to told me it was a bank error and completely their fault (she apologized several times) and that they simply processed the check early. The money was "put back" today (I'm back in the black), additionally she put $40 into my account to cover the automated $40 penalty fee that will be taken out later tonight. So I won't have to pay for their error.
Wrote out a new check for Dean and hopefully she can cash it tomorrow (her bank is open on Saturdays) and things will be fine for our rent due on Monday. Still, I'll be worried all weekend.
Things like this really freak me out and set off my mental alarms until I actually begin to work on resolving them. It's a mixture of my crap nerves and my near constant worry that I'm always just a single inexplicable incident away from total ruination and in the gutter. Really, it's a wonder I'm not a quivering mess all the time.
► I finally watched Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen 2 nights ago. Honestly, I actually enjoyed the movie quite a bit. Sure, it's not a prestige film, or a great one, but it was an entertaining and solid B - movie. Optimus Prime was awesome, Megan Fox was curvy and sexy*, and all the internet-hated dumb comic relief stuff didn't actually bother me. Also, I found the fights much easier to follow than the first.
Fun film. I got what I wanted out of it.
* I seem to have an odd love/hate thing for Fox.
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Garfield Minus Garfield
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Quote of the Moment
Conal Cochran: Halloween... the festival of Samhain! The last great one took place three thousand years ago, when the hills ran red... with the blood of animals and children.
Daniel Challis: Sacrifices.
Conal Cochran: It was part of our world... our craft.
Daniel Challis: Witchcraft.
Conal Cochran: To us, it was a way of controlling our environment. It's not so different now... it's time again. In the end... we don't decide these things, you know... the planets do. They're in alignment, and it's time again. The world's going to change tonight, doctor, I'm glad you'll be able to watch it. And... happy Halloween.
- Halloween III: Season of the Witch (1982)
Drinking: Tropicana orange juice
Last Watched: Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen (2009); The Uninvited (2009); The Howling (1981); The Private Life of Sherlock Holmes (1970); The Changeling (1980); Dr. Strangelove or How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964); Juggernaut (1974); Shine (1996); The Night Listener (2006); THX 1138 (1971);